Yes, I know I've been bad and haven't written nearly as much as I should have - I've had things to DO! Like uni, etc etc.

Well whats going on in my life? Nothing much....

Cami had dinner over my place last night - she and my family are getting on really well, which I didn't expect AT ALL!

However I had a really interesting conversation with my mom this morning where she took me aside and said I should assert myslef more with Cami. This is really wierd, I mean Cami is a much more opininated person than I am - she knows what she LIKES and she knows what she DISLIKES 

- I take more of a "whatever" approach

.... But my mom is joining a long list of people who have told me this! Am I that spineless? Is she that bossy?? ....I mean, the funny thing is that I'm perfectly happy with my life at the moment - I wouldn't change a thing...except maybe more sex... ;-|

Just checking in again to maintain that I'm still alive.

It true...I swear....

So here I am again.

Well we finally laid down the drum track for "Truth and Sin" - it only took half an hour - just 2 weeks getting round to doing it!

Uni's going fine, Cami's going fine, Life's going fine - everything is just going fine...

FUCK FUCK CUNT FUCK FUCK FUCK

Fruityloops - internally fucked, everything i record is altered in both pitch and speed seemingly at random. I DO NOT have all day to calibrate each sound - something that it should do automatically anyway. When it clicks it sounds great, but the fruityloops has to go fuck with it. FUCK.

wanted: New sequencer for use because there IS NO OTHER FUCKING WAY THAT BRILLIANT MUSICANS CAN RECORD THEIR FUCKING MUSIC FOR POSTERITY! FUCK YOU WORLD!

+ OUR PRINTER IS FUCKED. It is so blurry and washed out that you can't read it.

my father: looks fine to me...BULLSHIT YOU CAN'T EVEN SEE WHO'S REFERNCE IT IS!

FUCKITY FUCK FUCK FUCK

CUNT

CUNT

CUNT

CUNT

CUNT

Calmed down a lot.

Feeling better. 

Should be uploading  SOMETHING tomorrow

Haw de ho. ho de hum.

This is just great - it's 4 in the morning - I stayed up late doing my Digital Video project, and I have to be at Uni by 10...

...now the dilemma.

Do I :

A) Stay up, watch TV, something, and feel shit for the rest of the day (Tuesday)

or do I:

B) Go to bed, sleep for 4 or 5 hours and feel shit for the rest of the day?

I'm pretty sure

C) Skip first class, and slllleeeeeepppppp

is out of the question because it was MY OWN STUPID FAULT© that I stayed up...

hmmmm....

And yes, I merely included this header to see how many hits it would pull.

Sorry to all those who came and were disappointed.

If you are that desperate for porn that you will click on some random guy promising dirty images then i recommend that you divert your gaze to www.3pic.com for instance

 * I am not in any way responsible for the above link. Last time I checked it was a fluffy G-rated website with cute furry animals and magical stories. If it has been taken over by an evil PORN company that is not my business.

...besides if the sight of the naked human and/or the act of sex offend you I suggest you take it up with god for creating such a wicked, dirty, dirty thing.

BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY....

New Design!!! yay!

And yes - I decided to stay up. Although I'll probably go to sleep in about an hour.

and lose both ways.

and hate myself.

'cos I is Smahrt like taht

Yes, I know we're taking a long time to release any audio - but we're taking the time to get it right.

BTW Livergrl - W's "party" is on this friday.

Looks like I might be getting a job at EB (electronics boutique). Nothing certain, but I'm optimisitc. MONEY WOULD BE GOOD.

Now I have a 1500 word essay due nex thursday which I need to start.

...and what a party it was. Gate-crashed by at least 50 people, cops called - the whole deal. Almost wish I was sober, cos the whole thing seemed incredibly sureal.

Basically Wdowik wanted a big party, and a big party he got.

AND IN OTHER NEWS: There is a certain breed of girl that really pisses me off. Ok, there is a similar male type, but I'll save him for another entry. These sorts of girls enjoy wearing ugh-boots (because they're fashionable - doesn't matter that they look really dumb), the same tight jeans, waistbandthingy, pastel-coloured tops, loads of make-up (particulalry) and needn't bother herself with such things as intelligence or maturity. The amount of girls who showed up last night all looking like they had been cloned from each other, all wanting to hear "Candy Shop" because it "rocks".

Do you have any idea how fucking demeaning that song is? Do you have any idea how 50 Cent would treat you in person?

It's as bad as my sister thinking Eminem is hot! Yep, depraved human beings ALWAYS give me a hard-on. Fucking hell, Adolf Hitler, there's someone I want a piece of....

FUCK YOU, YOU USELESS HUMAN BEINGS.

WOULD ANYONE GIVE A SHIT IF YOU VANISHED OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH WITH YOUR GOOD CHARLOTTE AND YOUR FUCKING O.C.

The funny thing is that this is not a personel thing - I was not rejected by one of these girls in the 4th grade and made fun of by one in the 6th. These people just annoy me with their drone-like behaviour. Why are these people such fucking sheep. How can they get by in life being so fucking dumb?? </rant>

i feel a bit better now....

I'm also finding myself really annoyed about all these 12, 13-year olds running around calling themselves "punks" - do these kids even know what punk is? I was sitting opposite a linkin park fan last night, who kept saying how he used to be "punk" but now he's a bit more "post-punk" FOR FUCK'S SAKE

PUNK WAS NOT SOMETHING THAT YOU JUST PULLED ON TO APPEAR COOL - it was the antithesis of all these things...it was life style...a last alternate to suicide...a complete subjection to degradation...an nihilistic understanding of how useless your little fucked up life was, and how it served no purpose to anyone.

FUCK OFF BLINK 182 IS NOT PUNK - they're alternate pop/rock if they're lucky.

Sorry about all this venom - just some things I've been wanting to say for a while.

Well I've just got back from my wonderful 19th birthday present from Cami, which was a trip to Kioloa. It was really beautiful down there - we spent far to much time on the beach, and in the water.

Just a random update.

No rants, no big comments, nothing controversial....

Just stumbled on this site - no dead links!

http://www.davegotbettersincebleach.com/numusiq/

Only a handful of songs, but I had wanted to get hold of most of them.....

BTW they played NIN's The Hand That Feeds on Video Hits last weekend - sandwiched inbetween Mario and J-Lo. I was so proud. I wonder what all the teenybopper 13year olds made of that???

I am sick to death of Cami's fucking mother. The woman is an out of control power freak, who seems determined to contaminate every body's lives.

Unfourtunatly this woman seems to think it is her divine right to completely control the lives of herself....and her daughter....AND ME, her daughter's boyfriend...

Case in point, and reason I'm so pissed off. Last night I had two options (well, maybe three):

1) Go out and party with a whole bunch of people I have not seen in a while, which would have been great, I'd been looking forward to it, it would have been nice to do...

2) Go see Cami at her mother's house, where she now resides for the next 3 weeks while her Dad is away, and sleep over.

3) Go to sleep.

Well much as I would have jumped at the chance to be in an intimate setting with my beloved, I realised I hadn't seen these people in a long time, and i also haven't BEEN to a party in a while, so I was going to choose "1".

Before Cami's mother decided that I was going to have dinner at their place...because she'd made up her mind...and was planning a dinner for three...by the way, did I ever want to come back?

So we went and sat and listened to her interminable talk about how her boring and useless exsistence was, how her work was going, how everyone at her work was going, how her doggies were going, how her cousin was going, what she bought him for his birthday, how her life is going, how life was 10/20/30 years ago, how cami is, how cami was, etc etc

Did I mention never once asking about how anyone else was in the slghtest, never listening to anyone else, and assuming that we are fascinated to know exactly how a new worker is doing at her work - which could have easily been a minute long throwaway comment, but turned into a lecture of epic proportions.

For god sakes, I am majorly pissed off. RARRR
.

BTW, just in case anyone was wondering...

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires. And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

You Are 60% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

The ultime blog last resort - how my day went.

Didn't do much. Thought a lot.

Listened to The Fragile by Nine Inch Nails. Brilliant album. Can't wait for the new album next week.

Played Vice City. Can't get passed that stupid level with the toy planes and the cuban boats. ho hum.

Layed down more tracks for "Truth and Sin", just waiting for cami's vocals.

Actually began work on a naked.pulse website. Know progress is slow, but it's starting to accelerate.

I love you all.

Goodbye

Thanks to popular demand here is my blog journal entry on my nutmeg experience -

I haven't taken that many drugs in my day - a bit of pot, some dextamphetamines, but I do have a strange interest in trying strange things. One of the objects of my fascination was nutmeg.

One can find nutmeg in a variety of places - kitchens, supermarkets...did you know it was a powerful hallucigen?

That's right, good 'ol nutmeg can send you on a "trip".

Well anyway I thought I'd give this a go, so I went down to the local supermarket and procurred myself a reasonable quantity of this herb. It was a Friday night, so I was pretty certain that I'd have the weekend to recover from it.

MISTAKE #1: I tried to digeste TWO TABLESPOONS OF RAW NUTMEG mixed with FANTA. This is without doubt the most fucking disgusting thing i have EVER tasted. The very thought of it makes me want to puke. But I got it down...

Then I spent the next two and a half days flat on my back, staring at the roof. I saw shit, yeah, but much in the same hazey way you see blurry things when you have a really bad case of flu. This reached it's high (or low) point when I staggered into the toilet and then graphically hallucinated it turning into an elevator, complete with a woman and her dog standing next to me. I then just went to bed and slept and slept. I was still slightly out of it for the monday, but I had mostly recoevered.

I do not recmommend this at all - there is a reason it never took off. It's probably closer to being "delirious" than "high". Besides, if you ever do want to do it, for God's Sake, don't mix it with fanta - IT TASTES LIKE SHIT.

mix it into a nice cake or something... cheers

I was really worried about doing well at UNI - it's almost the end of semester one and until today I hadn't got A SINGLE mark back. I had no idea how the hell I was doing....

Anyway, I got my Chinatown Essay back from film studies - High Distinction - 93%... ;-)

me very happy

Well I haven't written anything lately, I'm wondering how long you have to be absent for Mindsay to delete your account.

I DO HAVE A REASON - the only internet connected computer has crashed for good - oh well, maybe I could connect the inernet up in my room - HANG ON! hmmm...that sounds like a good idea....

Ho hum...I'll upload a header graphic later today, hopefully.

BTW almost finished working on the seven songs the will form a demo EP.

tracklisting should go something like

01. As It Falls

02. Acceptance (instrumental)

03. Going Home

04. Truth and Sin

05. Quagmire

06. Only Ever Always

07. Weak

Just a quick note to point out that I've uploaded a header picture...

....wooo...i rock...

...i think....

Oh well - this is the graphic you were supposed to be seeing displayed above. Only seems to have worked for about a day....

http://www.angelfire.com/blog2/wicker/PaulHeslin.jpg

AHA, but I have a plan 2.

The image shall return within the next few days...

have faith

well heres a new link anyway...

http://f4.grp.yahoofs.com/v1/MAPGQphHoJzvCMdw6bSgYgC2PgnSFj3pz1NdMEGl8fdYE9ZT14Pld8c7zkNn5oagOwvKKiu_07nFHZfVLvo4Pg/PaulHeslin.jpg

I listened to NIN first album (pretty hate machine) for the first time yesterday and it slightly suprised me - far more synth-happy and far less angsty than I expected - did however fall in love with one song, and it's really funny how the lyrics PERFECTLY match the short encounter I had with a girl called Chloe.... almost makes me want to record a cover version...

stay posted

That's What I Get

by Nine Inch Nails

Just when everything was making sense.
you took away all my self-confidence.
now all that i've been hearing must be true.
i guess i'm not the only boy for you.

but that's what i get
that's what i get
that's what i get
that's what i get

how could you turn us into this?
after you just taught me how to kiss you.
i told you i'd never say goodbye.
i'm slipping on the tears you made me cry.

why does it come as a surprise.
to think that i was so naive.
maybe didn't mean too much.
but it meant everything to me

but that's what i get.
that's what i get.
that's what i get.
that's what i get.
for trusting you.
that's what i get.

I woke up feeling a bit strange today. I've been reading WITM's journal, and it's been very insightful into why he behaved a certain way, etc.

Actually it makes me feel a bit old. Don't know why, maybe because he seems to be in a space that I was a while ago, I don't know.

BTW Witm, that's not a superiority thing. The point your at in your life is great, enjoy every second of it.

Not to say that it's better than where I'm at....now I'm going in circles.

.......I think I'll give up and go work on That's What I Get...

Well this should be fun to fill out

..mind you, it should reveal some things about me...

QUESTIONS REGARDING The Seven Deadly Sins

ANGER

1. With whom did you last get angry? I don't know the last time I got really ANGRY. Probably Cami's hellbitch of a mother.

2. What is your weapon of choice? I suppose words - I've never been much for physical violence (although funnily enough, recently I've been really wanting to be in an all-out physical fight with someone).

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? I wouldn't descriminate because that is SEXIST which is EVIL right, you FEMINISTS??!?

4. How about of the same sex? Sure, why not.

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? No idea, you'd have to ask them. Actually I have NEVER had anyone tell me they were really angry with me - which is kind of wierd, how have I got this far like that?

6. What is your pet peeve? I don't have anything in particular - how about people who have very strong political and religous thoughts, and are too stupid to really understand the concepts (eg most religous fanatisicm, also "Id like to fawking kihl John Howard cos his a fawking murderer of those fucking refugess.)

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I don't have enough grudges to choose. Actually there was a little girl who I knew in Primary School called Sasha, who just decided as soon as she saw me that she hated me...so she tried to injure me at every oppurtunity. She was fat and ugly and she still is and she asked my brother out...rrrr.aarrrrrrr....fucking....rrrrr...

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you’re supposed to do daily that you haven’t done in a long time? I'll regulalry wear jeans for a few days in a row? Is that unsanitary?

2. What is the latest you’ve ever woken up? I woke up at 2pm two days ago - but I have an excuse, I got to bed at 6:30 in the morning.

3. Name a person you’ve been meaning to contact, but haven’t. Jehovah. Not the god, but a friend I used to have. Wouldn't mind seeing Jeremey and seeing how he's going. Phil, Jess, even Chloe. More because I'm curious where they're at rather than actually wanting to see them.

4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I don't go to work, so i have no need for lame excuses yet...but one day, one day...

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones…)? Lord no, I'd rather die. Mind you if i did watch one the whole way through I probably WOULD die. Has anyone ever answered YES to this question - I pity you from the bottom of my heart.

6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? Workout in what? Sex? Algebra? Assuming you mean physical workout - never. I suck. I also know that.

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I don't have a snooze button. I haev an old alarm clock and i tend to through large objects at it to shut the damn thing off.

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Um...coke? water? I don't drink coffee or tea, and I've gone off alcohol...

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? DARK...RED...BLOODIED...FRESH....RAR...

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you’ve had in one sitting/outing/event? Enough to not remember the exact amount - in fact it left me uncouncious. I think it was about 3/4 a bottle of brandy...and THEN a girl wanted to have sex with me - it was a very confusing night...

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope

5. Do you have an issue with your weight? All the time. Not as many as I used to, although Cami's grandpranets agreeing I'm putting on weight like nothing else was a bit disconserting.

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? I like Mexican and Chinese - I don't know, how about all three mixed in a nice way.

7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, “LUNCH” Can't say I have...there's another thing to do before I die...

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?  More than you may think. It helps the numbers when an entire party of drunk teenagers decide that removing clothes is a good thing. The number of times I've seen friends having sex disturbs me more - including a male friend trying anal sex with his girlfriend in a sleeping bag on the floor in front of me...scarred I tell you....

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? Quite a few...including (to my infininte shame and humiliation) CAMI'S FUCKING MOTHER - HOW DOES SHE KEEP POPPING UP IN THIS DAMN QUESTIONAIRE?

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Breasts very occasionally.... It's hard to stare at someones crotch when you're TALKING to them.

4. Have you “done it”? Yes. many times, in many ways.

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? The whole damn thing...every single part is incredible. and as a whole quite mindblowing.

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? Doesn't one proposition a prostitute - they're not mormon's you know...

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? No need.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? None - that was easy wasn't it...

2. What’s your guilty pleasure store? Ezy DVD! - or somewhere that sells chocolate or fried food.

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Hideously arty things. I don't think I'd DO anythying with it, being financial secure would be enough...

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Either would be nice, both better. Well,no. What I'm really aiming for is to be able to die and be glad how I lived my life. Otherwise I'd never be able to live with myself. A - hahaha.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Depends how much time it took up - If I was "working" in name only, and just raking in cash then, SURE, why not. If I actually had to commit my life to it, then no. The pursuit of money is not worth spending one's whole life on.

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? Well that's a change of question...probably about 250, but I've got thousands more on burnt data dvds

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you’re most proud of? I suppose got to where I am at the moment. Deep down I'm very happy with where I'm at.

2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? God I don't know - that I'm still a virgin (shhhh). My parents are pretty quiet, so If they are very proud of something they probably wouldn't make it well known. My moms said that she's proud that I turned out a wonderful human being, which is more of a compliment than it may sound.

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?

Love Cami. What we have does change the big picture.

Make art. I may die and my body turn to dust, but art lives on. Even if I'm long gone I hope that someone can pick up something that I created and connect.

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? No, because (this sounds like a load of bullshit, but it's TRUE) I compete against myself. I measure where I'm at and how I stand up to my previous work. I don't whether this advantages or disadvantages me but it's just how I do things.

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Can I say Uni without sounding like I'm completely up myself? Probably not - oh well. Seriously, a couple of girls in my class had never heard of a "synth". And they want to do well in a digital sound class. Sorry, but....

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? No, but I've never had a chance - wait a minute, I've been told that I cheated on a spelling test in pre-school, but I really don't remember that.

7. What did you do today that you’re proud of? Nothing yet, but then I only woke up about 3 hours ago.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Trent Reznor's collection of studio equipment and instruemnts (including John Lennon's melletron on which he wrote Strawberry Fields Forever). That was easy. Next.

2. Who would you want to go on “Trading Spaces” with? What the fuck is Trading Spaces??

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? No one apart from myself. And I actually mean that, which is a bit scary.

4. Have you ever been cheated on? Technically no, emotionally yes

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? I good haircut? I suppose I always preffered the thin/tortured look (eg Ian Curtis) but I don't think it would really match my personality. Could I have been born with black hair with blue streaks?

6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? I big red car...oh sorry, trait. Well maybe I'm TOO wrapped up in things. Maybe I learn how to relax and not worry about the world, but it would be so easy to go overboard, move to the coast, buy a combi van, smoke da 'erb and spend the rest of your like in a chilled out space. Hmmmm...doesn't sound so bad.

7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust is more fun than the others...?

QUESTIONS REGARDINGThe Seven Heavenly Virtues

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? None. I was majorly disallusioned by religon at a young age. I'm now offically agnostic.

2. What religion were you raised as? Don't even ask. Somewhere between mormon, judaisitc, catholic, jehovah's witness, etc

3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? Human. Whether god forgives or not is not my concern.

4. Do you believe in magic? I am extremely cynical in all things concerning the supernatural or spiritual. I personally believe the world is a bit too gullible (eg "You can't prove ghosts DON'T exist can you, so they must be real")

5. What was the last promise you broke? My promise not to answer dumb questions like this

6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? Every Friday night, and twice on Saturdays.

7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? No, because we could never agree what "perfect" actually is. Then again i believe everyone is perfect as they are, everyone is right where they belong.

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? I honestly can't remember what I did during the holidays, but I think so....

2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? Fulfillment...even though I can't spell it. I suppose peace with everything. and drugs. and sex.

3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? Yes, many times. Which is also why a cry a lot ;-)

5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? No, in the first place because my parents taught me it was a biblical sin to gamble and by the time I'd dumped religon I was mature enough to realise what a silly idea it was. NEXT TIME YOU GO INTO A CASINO LOOK AT HOW NICE EVERYTHING LOOKS - THINK WHERE THAT MONEY CAME FROM  

6. Do you gamble? Um....see above

7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? Probably - what a dreadfully strange question to ask.

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? None - I lack both money and time. If I had either I would willingly give them...

2. What causes have you given money or time to? See above. My parents always used to subtract 10% of everything to give to charity, which was a good habit, but being unemployed kind of puts a stop to this sort of activity....

3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? No, but then we don't really have that much of a homeless problem in Canberra anyway, well at least not compareble to most other cities.

4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel? Not really. If I was going to be sent into the middle of a war I'd prefer to join the army and be given training and a weapon if that's ok with everybody.

5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? Oh dear, I knew a question like this was coming up. I have (truth be told) very little sympathy for "homeless" people. If one is homeless in the middle of a poverty stricken country, and there is no support system, NOBODY CARES if your homeless, then you have my sympathy, and (If I had any) my money. I find it hard to believe that if anyone can be WITHOUT shelter in the australia of today (with our exceptional welfare system) UNLESS they have a drug/alcohol/gambling problem (in which case giving money solves nothing) or they have decided to leave "home". For gods sake, with the amount of charities and institutes set up to deal with this, you've got to be pretty bent on screwing up your life not to be able to make something of it. So, no.

6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? No, but I'd be more than happy to..... as long as this was my agreeable, intelligent friend rather than my aggressive accuintance who just got kicked out of their previous residence (re Trainspotting).

7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? I've only really been called on to talk and comfort, and I've done that to the best of my ability.

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? Godammit, octopuses freak me out. I have no idea why...I remember at the seaside I got a whole lot of seaweed wrapped around my legs and thought i was being dragged out to sea by some hideous sea beast. Don't know whether that CAUSED the phobia or vise versa.

2. What did you do today that was really brave? Got out of bed at 7. I've been going to bed at about 3am, so it is pretty scary... ;-) Sreiously, probably looking at something i was writing and admiting to myself that it was a load of SHIT.

3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why? No idea, does Doctor Who count?? Actually Sin City looks pretty bloody cool as a collective and Jessica Alba as a stripper??!!??

4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? I can say I would, but I have no idea how I'd really react in a split second incident.

5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? Heart. Or I could say, screw all three I want a new guitar.

6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? No, except for one oral I did on the subject of the battle of Stalingrad for history. I was suddenly paralysed with fright and just sat down halfway through my talk. Must have looked incredibly wierd. Apart from that I'm normally pretty good.

7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? I like to think i'm a leader, but I think I'm a bit to agreeable and sensetive to really kick heads as a real leader should.

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? No

2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? No idea. It really depends on whether I believed in the cause that I was being asked to put my life on the line for

3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? It changes. I'll read about a particulalry violent crime and believe that someone does not deserve to be treated as a human being, yet I do ultimatley believe that life in prison is punishment enough for any crime.

4. Which should be guaranteed legal? Huh? Marjuana? Whats the question?

5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? I'm not sure - he's definatley NOT the best man for the job.

6. What was your favorite media circus trial? the micheal jackson one is the only one coming to mind right now.

7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? no

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? How I spend my time

2. Do you collect anything? Not really

3. Are you addicted to anything? My girl, writting music?

4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? Yes - Buffy DVDS...shame

5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? With cash - I'm unemployed at the moment

6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do. Nothings coming to mind right now

7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? Yes, which is probably not all that bad a thing

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? Probably Danny Heap; although that could be let down by close examination. Brionys pretty on the ball.

2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? no 

3. Do you take advice when it's given? If it's good advice.

4. What area are you wisest in? I have no idea, and I'm getting sick of this questionarrie!!

5. Do you drive defensively? Don't drive

6. Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? yes 

7. What did you learn today? Absofuckinglutley NOTHING!

8. And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue? Temperance.

I just finished watching Kill Bill vol. 2 for only the second time (I've seen part 1 about *12* times) and I noticed a few things, which forgive me if this is already common knowledge, but there are a few actors who are reused throughout the film....

Gordon Liu plays the bald headed leader of the crazy 88 in vol.1........and he's Pai Mei in vol.2

Micheal Parks is the sheriff in vol.1..............and Bill's "adopted father" in vol.2

Wonder whether there are any more???

Another one of these annoying questionares...except  it's YOU who answers it.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

2. How long have you known me?

3. When & how did we meet?

4. What was your first impression?

5. If you could "hook me up" with ANYONE, who would it be?

6. What do you think my biggest weakness is?

7. What makes me happy?

8. What makes me sad?

9. What reminds you of me?

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

11. When was the last time you saw me?

12. What have you always wanted to tell me?

13. Describe me in one word.

14. Are you going to put this on your page and see what I say about you?

Well I haven't posted much here recently, mostly down to the fact that the computer at my place "broke" - so I've only been able to log on at UNI.

But anyway - we have a new computer, regular posting will resume soon!!

Well here I am typing from new computer (with net connection) YAYYY!

...after I've fought my way through all my brothers and sisters. grrrrr

BTW if you thought one of me was bad....watch '3Paul'

Well I've been meaning to do a general update blog in a while so here goes...My life at the moment consists of mostly just Uni, Cami, and the music/video/3d work i choose to do in my own free time. I'm planning to put my third short into heavy pre-production during the next few weeks - I'm just finishing the script, and I'm very excited about making it. This time I'm doing it for myself, so i can take as long as i want on it; as opposed to my last two shorts which were done for school, so I had to go so far as even cutting out the narration on the second one just to finish it in time - thus the film made very little sense. One day I'll record that narrative track. 

This film is looking fantastic - I knows it's a cliche for a director/writer/whatever to get excited, but I am. For the first time I'm working with actors, holding auditions, etc etc. We'll wait to see how that goes.

As for music (noticed how I'm sifting through my hobbies first??), well things are going good there to. Cami and I are going to be playing our first few gigs in october/november, and it's going to be interesting to see what sort of response we get. We've got some pretty good stuff so far and it's just a question of whether we can translate the great sound we have recordingwise into a great sound live. Lots of rehearsel coming up, people.

Last of my interests is, of course, 3d modelling. I haven't done much of it lately, but it's coming back. I'm going to be generating some for both the short film, and my music project.

Enough of the work, what of my social life.

Well, it's kind of disappered. Not that I mind THAT much.

I really haven't been staying in touch with people much, aside from Briony, who I see at UNI, and anyone else i bump into (which is actually a suprisingly large number).

Maybe I should call these people up, but if they don't contact me then I assume they don't have a burning desire to be in my company - which is probably excatly they way THEY are thinking. I thought this a while back when Cami and I ran into witm, Madelaine, and batgirljt out shopping. It seemed strange that witm has made such a concerted effort to stay in contact, although I'm not sure it's for entirely honorable reasons. Oh well, i don't mind not socialising with that many people, I have my Cami. XX

Nijiroboi, you suck.

I woke up at 2 o'clock this morning and wrote it down. 

I've been feeling slighlty guilty about talking so much about my work on music and not actually uploading anything....so here is

Shadowplay - Paul Heslin

cover of a Joy Division song. Drums generated using Fruityloops and N-track - I play bass/guitar/synths and sing vocals. The whole thing was mixed in my room on N-Track and mastered in Cool Edit 2000.

I would like to retract an oft-made comment which I typed off the top of my head in a previous post, if you take such great offence.

I was simply impliying that you created stronger relationships with batgirljt and madelaine because you were infatuated with them at various times, and strength of friendship has carried into post-college life (the friendship, NOT the infatuation). I am sure that your current relationship has made you slightly sensetive to comments regarding previous crushes. I'm sorry, I typed this a while ago and did not realise you would find it so offensive. If you wish, I'm happy to edit my original post, which I suppose makes this a grovelling appology, although I feel a need to defend myself. 

I don't have a problem with you at all, I'm quite happy with you, and it's none of my business how you conduct yourself privatley. Please dude, settle down. It was a random thought that just happened to occur to me when trying to think of something to post.

As for bitching behind your back, I can't bitch. I'm a guy.

Anyways, I don't think that is a fair statement - the offending comment was posted on a public forum. I was hardly calling people up behind your back.

As for BATGIRLJT agreeing with me, she's agreeing about how we should catch up sometime, THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.

I hope that clears things up. If not, feel free to continue this discussion. Or hate me for the rest of your life. Whichever is good with you.

Although I'd like to avoid the later.

Cheers mate.

/waits for "YOUR NOT MY FUCKING MATE, MUTHAFUCKER" reply/

oh, well...

SBS is screening Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex followed by Princess Blade on thursday night!

Hurray...maybe free to air isn't such crap after all.

Isolde is about to swing into production, should be holding auditions in the next few weeks.

...and THAT's the most exciting thing in my life at the moment

So Unis back tomorrow and I'm having mixed feelings about my course. i'm enjoying it and all, but I'm just wondering whether it will be useful to me later. Film Studies is great, I'm really enjoying it and doing well in it; Pop Culture isn't so great, I'm personally finding it to technical and wanky; Digital Video is good, I like the teacher, but I've decided to make the short film as my major, rather than a music video, which means A LOT MORE WORK. And Digital Sound is going good.

I suppose I'm just worried that Ezy DVD, Cami, uni, and stuff I do by myself could all become a bit much.

Oh well, see how it goes.

Well here I am on Monday morning.

I've only got to be in Uni at 1pm, so I've got a while - proofread my essay on "whether Kubrick's hand is evidenced by his artistic vision in The Shining, or whether there is a reliance on the genre", which I'm going to hand in today.

man, don't get off til 6pm - THAT SUCKS.

..and I'm still waiting for Ezy DVD to call back...ho well.

Well finished shooting the film for the youth group - wheee! Now for editing - it's not going to be a great film, although suprisingly good for a film with no script (Lars Von Trier would be proud).

The editing is going to be interesting though - which reminds me. I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO TODAY. Finish my pop culture piece, go to pop culture tute. Give Shy bakc the camera, upload and edit footage, finish script, give it to John, talk to him about the cast, Go to digital video class (3 hours)...pant pant...

Well I had a scare this morning - I loaded up my computer wouldn't accept my password. I tried at least twenty times, but it still wouldn't log me in. I'm really panicing, thinking of all the stuff i lost, and then i notice...The White Stripes DVD is pressing down one of the arrow keys..so yeah, I feel stupid, and it gives you some idea of what state my room is in...

I can't tell you how proud I am
I'm talking about things I don't understand

COULD YOU PLEASE FUCK THE HELL OFF.

READ OR WRITE YOUR OWN BLOODY BLOG, WHY DO YOU FEEL A NEED TO CONSTANTLY CHECK UP ON MINE?

GET A LIFE, PLEASE.

Well I'm very very excited, and very happy.

Moving in with Jess and Cam for a few days, mainly to see whether we can all get along. Now I've just got to get the income and we're all moving out.

YAY! - I really cannot think of any couple I could rather live with...

Grabbed this list from friend "dalekboy" on livejournal.

Mark the ones you've seen with an X, add five and then pass it on. The list is only getting longer.

[X] Napoleon Dynamite
[X] Saw
[ ] White Noise
[ ] White Oleander
[ ] Anger Management
[ ] 50 First Dates
[ ] Jason X
[X] Scream
[X] Scream 2
[X] Scream 3
[X] Scary Movie
[X] Scary Movie 2
[X] Scary Movie 3
[X] American Pie
[X] American Pie 2
[X] American Wedding
[X] Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
[X] Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
[ ] Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
[X] Resident Evil I
[ ] Resident Evil 2 (aka RE: Apocalypse)
[X] The Wedding Singer
[ ] Little Black Book
[X] The Village
[X] Donnie Darko
[ ] Lilo & Stitch
[X] Finding Nemo
[ ] Finding Neverland
[ ] 13 Ghosts
[X] Signs
[ ] The Grinch
[X] Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
[ ] White Chicks
[X] Butterfly Effect
[ ] Suddenly 30
[X] I, Robot
[ ] Dodgeball
[ ] Universal Soldier
[ ] Lemony Snicket's: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[ ] Along Came A Spider
[X] Deep Impact
[ ] Kingpin
[ ] Never Been Kissed
[X] Meet The Parents
[ ] Meet The Fockers
[ ] Eight Crazy Nights
[ ] A Cinderella Story
[ ] The Terminal
[ ] The Lizzie McGuire Movie
[ ] Passport to Paris
[X] Dumb & Dumber
[ ] Dumb & Dumberer
[X] Final Destination
[X] Final Destination 2
[X] Halloween
[ ] Halloween 2
[ ] Halloween 3
[ ] Halloween 4
[ ] Halloween 5
[ ] H20
[ ] Halloween: the Resurrection
[X] The Ring
[ ] The Ring 2
[ ] Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
[ ] Practical Magic
[X] Chicago
[ ] Ghost Ship
[ ] From Hell
[X] Team America: World Police
[X] Hellboy
[ ] Secret Window
[ ] I Am Sam
[X] The Whole Nine Yards
[ ] The Day After Tomorrow
[X] Child's Play
[ ] Bride of Chucky
[ ] Ten Things I Hate About You
[X] Just Married
[ ] Gothika
[X] A Nightmare on Elm Street
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 2: Freddy's Revenge
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 3: The Dream Warriors
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 4: The Dream Master
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 5: The Dream Child
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 6: Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street 7: A New Nightmare
[ ] Sixteen Candles
[X] Bad Boys 2
[X] Joy Ride (Roadkill in Australia)
[X] Seven
[X] Oceans Eleven
[ ] Oceans Twelve
[ ] Identity
[ ] Lone Star
[ ] Bedazzled (original)
[X] Bedazzled (remake)
[X] Predator
[ ] Predator II
[X] Independence Day
[ ] Cujo
[ ] A Bronx Tale
[ ] Darkness Falls
[ ] Christine
[X] ET
[ ] Children of the Corn
[ ] My Boss' Daughter
[ ] Maid in Manhattan
[ ] Frailty
[ ] Best Bet
[ ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] She's All That
[ ] Calendar Girls
[ ] Sideways
[ ] Mars Attacks
[ ] Event Horizon
[X] Ever After
[ ] Forrest Gump
[ ] Big Trouble in Little China
[X] X-Men
[X] X-Men 2
[X] Jeepers Creepers
[ ] Jeepers Creepers 2
[X] Catch Me If You Can
[X] The Others
[ ] Freaky Friday
[X] Reign of Fire
[ ] Man on Fire
[ ] Braveheart
[X] Cruel Intentions
[ ] The Hot Chick
[X] Swimfan
[ ] Miracle
[ ] Friday Night Lights
[ ] Old School
[ ] Ray
[ ] The Notebook
[X] K-Pax
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
[X] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Sweet Home Alabama
[X] Moulin Rouge
[ ] Boogeyman
[ ] Hitch
[ ] Back Door Sluts 9 ("Oh my god!!")
[X] The Fifth Element
[X] Star Wars episode I - The Phanton Menace
[X] Star Wars episode II - The Attack of the Clones
[X] Star Wars episode IV - A New Hope
[X] Star Wars episode V - The Empire Strikes Back
[X] Star Wars episode VI - Return of the Jedi
[ ] Troop Beverly Hills
[X] Swimming with Sharks
[X] Trainspotting
[ ] People under the stairs
[X] Blue Velvet
[X] The Sound of Music
[ ] Parent Trap (Haley Mills)
[ ] The Burbs
[ ] SLC Punk
[X] Meet Joe Black
[ ] Wild Girls
[X] A Clockwork Orange
[ ] The Order
[X] Spiderman
[X] Spiderman 2
[X] Amelie
[X] Mean Girls
[ ] Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
[X] Shrek
[X] Shrek 2
[X] The Incredibles
[ ] Collateral
[X] The Fast & The Furious
[ ] 2 Fast 2 Furious
[ ] Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
[X] Closer
[X] The Sixth Sense
[ ] Artificial Intelligence
[ ] Love Actually
[ ] The Sweetest Thing
[ ] Shutter
[ ] Ella Enchanted
[ ] Princess Diaries 1
[ ] Princess Diaries 2
[ ] The Breakfast Club
[ ] October Sky
[ ] Remember the Titans
[X] Titanic
[ ] Boondock Saints
[X] American History X
[X] Fight Club
[X] Heavenly Creatures
[ ] Stealing Beauty
[ ] Like Water For Chocolate
[ ] Powwow Highway
[X] Secretary
[ ] But I'm A Cheerleader
[X] I <3 Huckabees
[ ] Ripley's Game
[ ] Coffee And Cigarettes
[X] Taxi Driver
[ ] Silence Of The Lambs
[X] The Exorcist
[X] Exorcist II: The Heretic
[ ] Exorcist III: Legion
[ ] Exorcist: The Beginning (Renny Harlin version)
[ ] If Lucy Fell
[ ] Lady Jane
[ ] When Harry Met Sally
[ ] Me, Myself & Irene
[ ] Kung Fu Hustle
[X] Sin City
[ ] Labyrinth
[ ] Much Ado About Nothing
[ ] The Cowboy Way
[ ] Paulie
[ ] Blazing Saddles
[X] Galaxy Quest
[ ] Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
[X] Citizen Kane
[ ] You Can Count on Me
[ ] Young Frankenstein
[X] Raiders of the Lost Ark
[ ] Starman
[ ] St. Elmos Fire
[ ] Coyote Ugly
[ ] The Other Sister
[ ] Rainman
[ ] Little Shop of Horrors
[X] Chasing Amy
[ ] House of Sand and Fog
[ ] Mildred Pierce
[ ] The Big Lebowski
[X] Mallrats
[X] Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
[ ] The Goonies
[ ] Starsky & Hutch
[ ] Saved!
[ ] The Upside of Anger
[ ] Sweet Sweetback's Baadasssss Song
[ ] The Cat's Meow
[ ] The Rutles
[ ] Waking Ned Devine
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean
[X] Little Women (Winona Ryder)
[ ] Huck Finn
[ ] National Treasure
[ ] Oh, Brother Where Art Thou?
[ ] Dick
[ ] Howard the Duck
[X] Garden State
[X] Hero
[X] This is Spinal Tap
[X] Almost Famous
[ ] Before Sunrise
[ ] Before Sunset
[X] Troy
[ ] Gone With The Wind
[ ] Chocolat
[ ] Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
[ ] Now and Then
[X] Romeo and Juliet (Zeferelli)
[X] Ferris Bueler's Day Off
[ ] Grease
[ ] Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?
[ ] Mr. North
[ ] The African Queen
[X] The Wizard of Oz
[ ] Country Girl
[ ] The Philadelphia Story
[X] Bringing Up Baby
[ ] The Aviator
[ ] An Affair to Remember
[ ] Sabrina (any version)
[ ] It Happened One Night
[ ] Adam's Rib
[ ] Clue
[ ] Holiday
[ ] Arsenic & Old Lace
[ ] The Apartment
[ ] Once Upon A Time In The West
[ ] DIG!
[ ] Sorority Boys
[ ] Kiss Me Kate
[X] Adaptation
[X] Blade Runner
[X] Kill Bill 1
[X] Alien vs Predator
[ ] Total Recall
[ ] The Shadow
[ ] Birth
[ ] Unbreakable
[ ] Win a Date with Tad Hamilton
[ ] Outrageous Fortune
[ ] Wimbledon
[ ] The Dambusters
[ ] State Fair
[X] Shaun of the Dead
[ ] Blue Juice
[ ] Timeline
[X] Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
[ ] Dark Crystal
[X] The Princess Bride
[ ] Bad Santa
[ ] The Odessa Steps
[ ] Roman Holiday
[ ] The Slipper and The Rose
[ ] Without a Clue
[X] Briget Jones Diary
[X] The Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] The Phantom of the Paradise
[ ] Steamboat Bill Jr
[X] The Cabinet of Dr Caligari
[ ] Caligula
[X] The Hunger
[ ] Sneakers
[ ] The Lost Boys
[ ] Officespace
[ ] Toxic Avenger
[ ] Bob Roberts
[ ] The Player
[ ] Bring it On
[ ] The Blues Brothers
[ ] Cannibal Women of the Avocado Jungle of Death (no - it's not porn)
[ ] Brotherhood of the Wolf
[ ] Tombstone
[ ] The Bourne Identity (either version)
[X] The Matrix
[ ] Interview with A Vampire
[ ] Iron Monkey
[ ] The Duellists
[ ] Tears of the Sun
[ ] Volcano High
[ ] Equilibrium
[X] Bad Taste
[ ] Tim
[ ] Dogs In Space
[ ] Irma La Duce
[ ] Truly Madly Deeply
[ ] Barbarella
[ ] 4 Rooms
[ ] Envy
[ ] The Honourable Wally Norman
[ ] Bride and Prejudice
[ ] Uzumaki (Vortex)
[ ] Kairo (Pulse)
[ ] The Ring Virus
[ ] Alien 3
[X] Caravan of Courage
[ ] Slipstream
[ ] Irma Vep
[ ] Hideous Mutant Freeks (AKA Freaked)
[X] Der Golem (1920)
[ ] Tremors
[ ] Prophecy
[ ] Radioactive Dreams
[ ] Cafe Flesh

[X] The Acid House

[X] The Evil Dead

[X] Lost In Space (crap film remake)

[X] Meet the Feebles

[X] Nosferatu (original B/W 1931?)

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So many films, so little time.

Well here's another general update...

Uni

Going fine. Okay - time to admit that Film Studies is a bit of a bludge - 2 essays and 2 hour long exams is an entire years worth of assessment....and watching a film every week, so it's not bad. Plus I am topping the class, which i'm extremely proud of. I'm glad I have at least one subject that I can relax in. Pop Culture isn't my favourite class, but it's over in about three weeks. Digital Sound is slightly disapointing, being closer to programing than playing - but I should be able to use it in my music, besides it should get better. Digital Video is interesting although at the moment I'm just using it as incentive to make my short film for the major piece...which lead into...

Art

The film is rocketing along - I might actually have it done by due date, which is a suprise. Shooting will be happening over the coming weeks, and then it's all post. This is going to be the hardest part, and all the CGI is going to take a while to make look good and generate. Also planning the DVD, which is going to look fantastic...can't wait to submit this all to tropfest...

As for music, well it's ticking along pretty well. Cami and I are currently recording a pretty kick arse single, that we should then film a video for, and release upon the world. We really should have been getting our act together / rehearsing / writing more, but Cami's been going though hell and we've both been struggling for time. that then pulls into the future...

Future

Well Cami and I really want to move out (which hopefully will be with Jess and Cam), so at the moment we're looking to set ourselves up in a situation where this will be possible. We've been doing the maths, and we reckon we can pull it off, it'll just take a bit of work. Moving in with Jess and Cam would be great, couldn't think of anyone we'd rather live with. What it all comes down to is that next month, when Cami has finished college and I've finished my first year at college/and short film, we can really focus on spending the end of this year/start of next really sorting out our lives, which is something i'm really looking forward too.

I'm really feeling like my childhood is over and I'm moving into the world, to make whatever of it i may...

http://spstudio.linda.hosting-friends.de/spstudio.html

Worth having a look at for a bit of fun, although do NOT attempt to make everyone you know in it, because that is SAD.

Well here's me

Place is free this Thurs - Tues.

I'll probably drop into work on Monday to talk about details, if you guys are still interested...

Well I thought I'd upload some photos from the first night of shooting on Tuesday...because I can!

Well the film now exists in a rough version. Still missing two scenes (it's hard to film when your main actress IS ON ECSTASY) and still needing a polish and some better fx, but it isn't too bad at all.

I've basically spent my entire weekend in the labs finishing this thing up - hard work, but now I can say that I'm competent on industry standard technology, and I can create a pretty mean looking DVD.

I'll submit the film to tropfest - it doesn't have to be in the mail til january, so it gives me some time to sort out stuff.

...already planning next short. I feel like I've been finding my feet, and now I can really have a concept and go out and film around it. Which is a nice place to be.

I do feel like I've abandoned music a bit, but I'm sure I'll come back to it in time. At uni I surrounded by so many people who organise gigs, play at them, and are exploring so many fascinting avenues of music. The time will come fairly shortly we're I'm really going to focus all my energy and really give it a go. There is nothing I'd rather do than write good music and play it. That ability to touch people, make them excited, angry, sad; make them remember so many emotions is such a wonderful thing....besides I hear it helps being in a band if you want to pick up (JOKE JOKE).

Speaking of girls, I worry about Cami. She really is going through a tough time at the moment, we both are. We're really having to face life at the moment, although we are pulling through strongly which is good.

I never did really work on music with Jeremey - sorry, random thought. We only ever swapped music files and re-edited them, but we never sat down with instruments and tried to write something - wonder how it would have turned out...I don't think it would have worked out, we're just too different.

I remember we did play "Brick" by Ben Folds (that right?), Jeremey on guitar/vox, me on bass. It was funny because I'd never heard the song before, J just ran through the bassline about 20 minutes before we went on. So the audience is singing along, and I don't even know the fucking words. I still haven't heard it.

Hope I got the notes right...kind of hard in that situation.

On another note, WITM seems to be going through the wars. I'd like to offer some friendly advice, but I just don't know enough about what's going on. I'm sure things will work their way out...I just feel sorry for him because I think I was in a similar situation a while ago. Sometimes emotions can take over and you can just get blinded by things, and I'm not saying in either way, things just don't seem to make sense. maybe it's really love when you find someone and everything makes sense. or maybe that's bollocks.

Seem to have been spending very sporadic time with Jess and Cam - we'll go through days of LIVING with each other and then we won't see each other for a while and then...it's a bit strange. I don't mind it because their both very easy going people (that's why they were heighest on MOVE OUT WITH list). Actually I'll re - emphasis: they're good people. Cam is great, he seems to have found a very uncomplex niche for himself WHICH IS A GOOD THING. You can just talk to him without all the backstabbing, infighting, overanalysing shit that normally goes on. I like him. I've known Jess for ages now (I was home-schooled, okay? I had no friends "in "high school") and she has a good heart, and has finally found a man to settle down with (took a few goes, didn't it?)...as all women should...kitchen...cleaning....joking (dodges boots thrown by ardent feminists). But will moving in kill our friendship - I have no idea. I HOPE not, but who can tell what little things can aggravate...nah I think we'll be fine as long as Cami can learn to share "her" kitchen.

Speaking of traditional females (/sarcasm) I wonder how Liverspoon is going - well...how are you going? We should really try and cross paths before you go away...although we've never seemed to be the "missing" kind of friends, more the chilled out "hey, man, you're cool" kind of friends.

That just about wraps up how life is going my end...I still have to do my sound work...

...BUT TERMS IS ALMOST OVER - HOORAY!

Well here I am back again. I should probably be asleep, but I can't...not because I CAN'T, but i won't let myself...I'm supposed to do the sound edit for my film before I go to sleep - and I'm up to the "surf the net" stage. Blah - I can stay up all night...once Monday 10am comes around and I've handed in my assignments I can SLEEP...but I still have my assignemnt for pop culture. D'oh. Make that wednesday night...

I need some more culture in my life..there's the new Franz Ferdinand album, the new(ish) White Stripes album, I should buy an album! The last album I got was Playing The Angel by Depeche Mode, which was really great. Dave Gahan actually wrote some songs...sorry for fanboy reference, Gahan NEVER writes songs, just sings...but not only has he written three but Suffer Well and Nothing's Impossible are just fantastic. Yay for good music!...yet whenever I hear good music I get that desire to write stuff, hear notes that work together, etc.

...which kind of leads me into another point - I don't really see myself as that artistic, yet I have to face facts that art rules my life. Music and film are the two "hobbies/work/school/job(please?)" of my life, and I love them. This kind of came into contrast when I was talking to Cam and I realised that cars are his version. He just loves them to peices, finding out how they work, different types, and he's managed to find work in that field (good on him). There is no real point to this, I'm just writing for the sake of writing now, and I feel a like I've been a bit self-obsessed.

Went and saw Nightwatch on (Saturday?). Pretty good, and it's GREAT to see that the trend to release foriegn films straight into the mainstream western market. With films like this, and Hero, it is incredible to see how a "blockbuster" film can translate across culture as long as the message is universal enough. Sure Nightwatch has a few Russian querks, but it still comes across quite well, and I thought what they did with the subtitles was very cool - just hope we don't have to wait another few years for part two (It's already out in russia, dammit).

Sorry to divert like this, but for some ungodly reason I suddenly though about something that happened to me on the bus the other day. Yes, lots of interesting things happen on buses, but this leads into a general rant on society...sorry, this has nothing to do with Nightwatch. So I was on the bus, and I hear these two voices behind me, on the back seat. There are these two girls playing their (FUCKING) polyphonic ringtones and singing along to EVERY SINGLE ONE. That's from Tuggeranong to Civic, about 45 minutes, filled with these girls singing loudly (and terribly) every single note of appaling dance/pop songs - that means everything by the Black Eyed Peas (shudder), Britney, Bomfunk Mcs, etc etc. Now having heard Freestyler sung so out of tune my ears hurt, they moved onto Kelis' Milkshake. Now I don't know what the real lyrics are, but I can bet they weren't :

"my milkshakes bring all the boys to the yard

and they're like, I'll give you head

and I'm like, let's fuck instead"

over and over and over again.

and then the ringtone stopped, and thank god they stopped too.

so they started it up again, and sang along once more.

It was one of those cool moments where a whole lot of people on that bus (seniors, students, buisnessmen, everyone) could all meet eyes in similar disgust/disbelief...

I mean, were these girls ever going to stop?

...and then they get onto an (I assume) obscure dance song called "Sex On The Beach", which goes something like:

"Sex on the beach

I wanna have sex on the beach

Sex on the beach

I wanna have sex on the beach

Sex on the beach

I wanna have sex on the beach

Sex on the beach

I wanna have sex on the beach

Sex on the beach

I wanna have sex on the beach"

Get the idea?

And then when they had finished, one of the girls announced to the entire bus:

"I don't really want to have sex on a beach, it's just the song".

There we have it, an entire generation of young girls who are behaving like SKANKS because it's in the song....

there's this really funny clash going on. Take Kabooti's sister...at the age of 13 she spends her entire time trying to be "sexy" (ie where lots of make-up, tight jeans, pastel tops, jean-wastebands, you know the look) listen to bad pop and idiolise whoever Dolly tells her too. Yet at the same time, up until recently sex was disgusting and any sign of affection from anyone was "gross". Where is society going? i have no idea and I'm beginning to sound like a bad bible basher.

I just think things have changed quickly, thats all.

Now, is it 1 in the morning or 2? One clock says each - stupid daylight saving. How I hate it - and it's stealing an hour I need to do my work. FUCKING DAYLIGHT SAVING!

On a side note Ricky Gervais' new series Extras should be out soon - that's right the same guy who did the Office, yadda yadda.

But it should be good (with kate winslet, liverspoon); please screen it ABC!

...and sound assignment, both handed in with about 3 minutes to spare - now I just need to do the pop culture essay, do the film studies test in two weeks, and then I'm free!!!

Anyone got a post-first year Uni party happening i can crash? Witm? Liverspoon? Tom_Read??

Well here's the first thing I've modelled in ages - a padlock.

whoohoo, i know, it's exciting.

about 2 hours to build and texture, and about 5 minutes to composite onto an image of our back gate, hence why it looks slightly dodgy.

Oh well, I think I'll build a TV next....

...hopefully I'll be able to build one of these (see below) fairly soon...

SEEEEE - Doctor Who is cool.

In other news I've been reading Irvine Walsh's Porno, essentially the sequel to Trainspotting. Walsh really writes like nobody else and is currently favourite author. I really should read more. I've got some Selby Jr. waiting for me at the library (remember paul, they don't only stock DVDs - they also have some books!) and Erskine's Box lent by kabooti, whoom I love.

Ok, this is just one of those things...

I know Liverspoon....

...who meets Moose online, god know how...

...who used to go to school with, and was good friends with, Kabooti...

....who is MY girlfriend.

Just one of those "two friends know the same person", although in this case by a different name... Oh well, *I* thought it was interesting...

 Well the performance last night was interesting...we ended up playing 3 songs, but the festival organisation was a complete shamble. We were supposed to go on about 8:30 and can't have actually taken the stage before about 10:30.

The songs didn't go to badly, as best that could be done with the bass/acoustic guitar and vocals. The sound was pretty shocking, my bass far to high, the vocals almost drowned. I'm thinking about trying to find a very simple mixer - all i want is something that can take 4 inputs (1: Cami's guitar / 2: vocals / 3: bass / 4: digital synthesis), allow basic volume and EQ mixing, and spits out 2 channels - hell, even 1 channel would do live.

It wasn't really a naked.pulse perfromance...more Cami playing Ani covers with me backing on bass. We did play Cami's song "Truth and Sin", from way back, which was good. Considering the crowd were all standard rock fans, that song seemed to be more suited. 

We only really got about 2 hours rehearsel beforehand, as well, which isn't ideal (and our own fault). What I'm really looking forward to doing is sitting down and writing some really interesting material, incorperating my digital sound work, recording a demo and really giving it a go. I think Cami has a fantastic voice, and I have great faith in my own song writing abilities (which are yet to see the light of day), which I think as a musical combination has great potential.

Basically what it comes down to is that last night was far from what we are really capable of.... which I'm taking as an optomistic thought.

I'll upload a video soon. - and why the hell is Mindsay suggesting "clarinet" as an approptiate tag???

Well where am i at?

I'm sitting at the computer at 10:45 in the morning wearing ALL black (right down to the shades) which is STUPID because it's to bloody hot ALREADY. Plus the fact that I moved my room around two days ago, and I've just discovered that my bed is now under the morning sun - which means I wake up every morning with a headache and feeling generally crap = FUN...maybe time to re-organise my room again.

Well Uni's done, and I'm already planning next year's projects...God, don't I know how to relax? probably not. The short film I did for my major that I'm planning to submit to various festivals is now mastered on disc and I just need to buy blank dvd cases get covers printed, etc. See how that goes.

Overall I'm pretty happy with how my first year at Uni went - firm Distinction average, which isn't something to complain about. Reckon i should be on track for honours.

Maybe I'm to consumed with film and music - I don't know getting pissed or high has lost it's lustre - it's almost like I wanted to test whether I could fuck up my perception at will...I don't know whether that makes any sense? But know I'm really not interested...It's like "I could get high, and it would be cool, but I'd RATHER do "this"". This actually being playing playstation...I never really seemed to like games much, but I've been playing a few that I like...not that much, I'm not going to get into it much, because It really is a pretty useless way to spend your time when you think about it - but hey, it's good to relax. I swear Cami is trying to turn me into a gamer.

Musically I'm at a bit of a crossroad - I've got about 20 demos floating around on my computer in bits and peices, just waiting for me to finish a lyric/write a bassline and then record the whole thing properly. I'm even thinking of holding out into the new year because then i can get into the CNMA recording studios and use there 10,000 dollar plus plus equipment on Pro Tools, as opposed to my shitty mic on N-Track.....plus Cami is more likely to be involved.

I listened to the new (well, THE ONLY) Bloc Party album. I like. Very much. Just momentarily made me want to drop everything and join a 4-guy guitar band...

Maybe I'm getting a bit deeply into art, but hey, it's what I love, enjoy, and I'm not even making any money off it yet..

BTW breasts are cool. No arguments. They're just fucking cool.

I'm still in love with Bloc Party - I'm currently downloading their complete live appearance at Glastonbury which should be great! The White Stripes and Franz Ferdinand are coming to coming to Australia and I wont see them! NOOOOO! Why? Well lack of money for said shows, plus the fact that I'd have to stay in Sydney or Melbourne, which requiers more money. At the moment I'm living on about $100 a month, which I'm choosing to see as a good thing - at least it's teaching me to be frugal and not fritter away my moneyies.

God I'm tired...nothing but holidays stretch before me...

Well here's my latest musical work - a cover of the Lush song Hypocrite

Download/Listen

Well I finished it and put it aside for about an hour, relistened to it and HATED it. That sort of "I should start from scratch" hate. Oh well i'll upload it anyway...

Sorry about the guitar - it sounds pretty shit. You really need a good distorted hazy electric to get that shoegazer sound, but I only have my acoustic steel string, nice as it is. The bass is good though. I'm a real fan of the distorted bass, and I'm trying to think of someone else who does that sort of thing...

Well I think it's the best vocals I've done yet, even though the lyrics bear little corelation to my own thoughts at the moment. Overall I don't think it's to bad for a rushed three hour job, although I have no idea why i decided to cover THAT song.

Oh well...hopefully I'll get some more original stuff done soon....

Well today I listened to Radiohead's OK Computer for the first time - think I prefer Kid A or even Hail To The Theif...which reminds me, I must track down a copy of Kid A because it's a fucking good album. I seem to be getting a lot of new music in at the moment - which IS a good thing. Other worthy mentionables are Death From Above 1979's "You're A Woman, I'm A Machine" and Damien Rice's B-side collection. Heard bits of both and really liked.

The closest thing to exciting news is that I won one of BMA's competeions, and got meself a nice Sin City prize pack, which I should be picking up soon... Hooray...

And today i watched Dark Crystal...ya...y?

dark crystal

title pretty much says it all - although i don't really have good reasons... just loads of DVDs to watch, christmas presents procured for my love, and a short film outline that is going to be incredible. I'm hot and sweaty (and probably smell) after riding a bike for the first time in ages, all my fines are paid of to library, etc, and Sanity suck for not calling me yet. Cami and I are going to spend the weekend together ALONE at a mystery location, and should be getting in some solid songwriting (songwriting GOOD).

Basically I'm just chilling at the moment (or as Cami's father would insidiously put it "floating"). I'd like to have a job by January. Fuck, I'd like to have an EP out by January....but I'm happy to give it all time to develop. There really is no use rushing these things.

BTW I watched 3 Extremes last night. Very fine example of where Asian cinema is at - although it's the first film (or film"s") to make me feel physically sick...and I've sat through some sick stuff.

BTW pt2 The League Of Gentlemen film really isn't very good, which is a shame because the Tv series was so brilliant. But it's really far more fun than funny...maybe i just wasn't in the mood.

I tried to do something different, but fuck it.

If you don't want to hear then that's ok, because I'm going inside. If it's off-key or fucking lost, then that doesn't matter anymore because I'm not speaking to you.

I'm talking to myself.

And just fior the record - fuck that too.

Yep, bizarre dream last night. I meet up with Tom after ages of not seeing eachother - he'd been in a special school for the past three years and been especially chosen as the leader of their space flight program. SO basically he's spent the past year being trained for a moon trip, which culminated in him landing and walking on the moon. He's really happy about this at first -

Paul: so what's that whole anti-gravity thing like?
Tom: Just incredible - I mean, it's like being almost weightless...it just really felt *so* good.

But then he starts to get depressed and talk about how it was a waste of time, and he hadn't really accomplished anything while I tried to tell him that walking on the moon is an increbidle feat that a miniscule percentage of humanity acheieve, even though we must all dream about it at some point. Most would be happy if that was all the acheived in their life.

* * * * *

Tom decides to take a whole bunch of us on a bullet-monorail to show us how the school's astronaut section looks like - I, for one, am really interested. Where shooting along at a million miles when a foreman steps onto the track and tells us that the entire area has been shut down. Tom gets more depressed. We decide to throw a party for him, to cheer him up.

* * * * *

The party is held in the outback and almost everyone comes, including my whole family. First I bump into Jess and Briony, who launch into an exctended account of how a cat tried to chat them up, and how they reported him to officals, etc etc. Then they get scared and run away, for no decernable reason, and I go looking for food. In the kitchen are a whole heap of already buttered and mayoed buns. One is simply supposed to add a chicken fillet to the bun and eat, but I get paranoid and try to set the kitchen on fire.

THE END (thankfully)

Well just got back from seeing King Kong, and I loved every second of it.

Peter Jackson, I still want to be just like you when I get big.

Jess and Cam also seemed to like it, and it reduced Cami to tears. It's always nice when you can all walk out of the theatre feeling like the money was well spent - although having some people love and some hate the same film is always interesting...but, yes

I've been doing Ok the past few days - mainly sitting on my arse at Cami's as they move around furniture. Asside from that I've been doing prelimanry sketches for my next big project, which I'm going to plan into the ground.

Ho hum... I feel justified spending this week not doing much - I've spent the other 51 flat out...or that's my excuse anyway. Christmas presents are all buyed, now just waiting to give them on Sunday. Only my second christmas ever, how exciting!

Yay Brionys back!

BTW Pop Will Eat Itslef's "Wake Up! Time To Die" is the best song I've heard in a long time - thought I'd just air that thought.

Well, life continues to bounce along - I've put off job-searching until Cami and I get back from Melbourne - no point asking for work and then revealing you can't work for about a week and a half at the end of the month! Anyway melbourne should be great. I love that city, so much. So inbetween the catching up with friends down there, and seeing the sights, it should really be wonderful.

I've just finished writing "Photogenic", a really short (2 minute) short horror/thriller film. Think I'll see whether friends are interested in helping out...assuming I still have any...friends? Friends? Where are you? 

It is a very interesting script, inspired by an idea liverspoon gave me (thanks), and then also partially inspired by music she gave me - do you want a thank you credit, liverspoon, or are you going for co-writer?

Whole more two months before I return to uni, god they give us a long break.

I've been feeling the real urge to move out - not because my family's giving me grief, like in Cami's case, but because I just want to be "out there" earning my own way and building my own life. I really want to move out mid-next year, I really think the time has come.

oh and BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY batgirljt !

I just realised the irony that I'll be in Melbourne *during* Big Day Out, but not actually going...FRANZ FERDINAND?? THE WHITE STRIPES??? WHY GOD WHY??? Oh, well...maybe next year... is there any late minute competition I could win??

BTW has anyone noticed how popular some bands seem to be among Mindsay users? I mean, I know that's a stupid question but a disporportioned amount of users seem to all adore fairly unknown artists. Take Ani Difranco - a relatively obscure performer, yet my girlfriend, the girl who starred in my last uni short, and  divine  and babyblueeyesok  , two mindsay users I randomly fell across today are also fans...It's also worth mentioning that divine  actually looks very similar to Ani, or is that a *photo of Ani*? Oh well, I'm going to go hide...

Maybe she's disease, quick kill her before she spreads any further!!!

Look Living In Clip is a good album, but I must say most of the others haven't grabbed me. Although I do love "pulse"...

Won't anybody admit to liking Jessica Simpson?? I mean I won't, but that's because I don't!

How did the Black Eyed Peas get every single sucky single from Monkey Business (Phunk With My Heart/Don't Lie/ My Humps) to number one in the Austrlian charts? Who's buying? FESS UP people?

So here I am, back on the computer.

Oh dear.

Having decided not to look for work for the next two weeks, I forsee those two weeks being filled with music making, film planning, film watching, cammying, and general lazy behaviour. Not there's anything wrong with that. I could be spending those two weeks just perfroming the last option, at least I'm doing SOMETHING with my life. I think the problem is that at the moment my work is fairly self-contained.

Cami and I aren't ready to go out and play yet, so I'm just planning, writing, and recording in my bedroom. Ditto film - not ready to go into production just yet, so I'm working on the script.

...in my bedroom.

Well at least I've done something pro-active, I submitted my cover of Joy Division's Shadowplay to a New Order/Joy Division tribute album. See how that goes and keep posted.

Ok, I promised never to do anymore of these, ever again, but this one just looked to damn interesting

1.You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? I really don't hate anyone, is that unusual? Nobody has yet pissed me off to the extent of wanting to terminate them - I will however put in special mention to McDonalds, where I worked for three years. Can a detonate the whole fucking corporation...but the do make such nice apple pies. Ah, the problems of life...

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be? I'm going to put in my vote for Jessica Simpson. There's just something about her FACE and her BODY and her LIFE that pisses me off. The self-centered belief that she is a classical christian and everyone else is going to burn in hell, and yet selling herself in one of the most "sinful" ways possible... The fact that she constantly refers to herself as an "artist" - baby, artists are supposed to be creating ART. Ok, I'm done ranting...

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? Um, Chris K, but I think he'd like it...or just punch me back.

4. What is your favorite cheese? Jahlsburg. It's so good, I don't even know how to spell it.

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What does your dream-sandwich consist of, and does it contain the aforementioned cheese? Yes, with lettuce, ham, mayo, butter, sour cream and turkey - and cold water on the side.

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie-celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once (they will never call you back). It'd probably end up being with someone just to make one of my friends jealous and...ah, I love my girlfriend very much and...can I take her? Not a movie celebrity, you say? Look, if it really came down to the line it'd probably be somebody like Jessica Alba or Alyson Hannigan just because, on a basic level, they're hot. Besides it also fufills nerdy sci-fi crushes formed during puberty....

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Same rules as above. Who is it? Shirley Manson, except going back about ten years. Really, most music CELEBRITES just piss me off..

8. Now that you've slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it? Probably save it. Aren't i boring?

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Well, go to melbourne leaps to mind, as it would save my train ticket two weeks from now. Nah, probably London if I could go anywhere. I now it's not very exciting, but bear in mind I've never been anywhere outside my home country. World scary. and big.

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, where are you gonna go to spend that? Ahhh...probably a hotel. I was supposed to say prostitues and good times, wasn't I??.

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. "Be brand-specific" it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Um, ask Cami. I don't really drink.

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there? To the late seventies in britain and form a punk band. Yep, that's where I'd be going!

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? There's something hard to ignore about hot asian schoolgirls... Seriously try and make a rule that nature itself will follow. Eg. No Death. No-one Gets Pregant Until They Have A Will Too. Which reminds me, I've been meaning to rant (doing a lot of that today) about the biological function of reproduction. Now why did God (I'll be a born again (pun) christian for the sake of this argument ) design a system where females hit puberty and become fertile, when he could have done the cool thing and created females so that they require a certain chemical to be active in the body. That certain chemical, which would only be released when the women felt a desire to reproduce. A bit of a silly idea, I know, but it would fix a lot of problems in the world.

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what's the premise? Well it'd have to take place in a shared house...and have zombies...and lesbians...did I mention I'm MALE??

15. What is your favorite expletive? You really can't go past "CUNT" can you? Plus it just sounds so blunt and sharp (at the same time!! wow!)

16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do? Mummies = egypt or mummies = mummy has baby???

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what's the one thing you're going to save from that blazing inferno? Probably my computer hard drive. Now I feel nerdy. Sorry, did I say computer? I meant...my....masculine..."manly stuff"?

18. The Angel Of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel Of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour? Probably what I had planned to before the Angel showed up...just with a few more "I love yous" and kisses.

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be? Invisibility. Ever seen Hollow Man? No. And since I'm spending most of my life in my darkened room at the moment, it wouldn't matter if I was invisible.

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? Late last year. The happiest part of my life.

 
21. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? The years at McDonalds come to mind.

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit... you can move to anywhere else in the world! Bitchin'! What country are you going to live in now? I thought I said Britain a few times???

23. This question still counts even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be? Can I say I really don't care and still be cool?? I really don't "do" the whole bar scene. Look, if I had to choose, then there's a really nice bar in Civic - the Phoenix??

24. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question.... If you did, then we'll just expand on that. Check it out... Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like "Dude look at me I can float!"? Who writes these dumb questions???

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier have given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which late celebrity will you bring back to life? John Lennon, just to show the world that a great songwriter, yes. Wonderful neo-saintly human being, no. Have any of you heard "How Do You Sleep?"??
 
26. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn't think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? My grandfather. He seemed a great person, but if you'll notice that was "seemed". I never really knew him. Or my cousin, who was killed in a car accident. Didn't know him either, but I don't think he wanted to know me.
 
27. What's your theme song? Well as I write my own music and lyrics I can name of piece of music that I believe truly is refelctive of me..."Acceptance" by Paul Heslin

And finally, how much do Grinspoon suck??

Well I got sick of my old design...this is only an inbetween, I'll completely redesign the blog either tommorow or the day after.

Depends how bored i am.

Cheers!

Well it's still far too hot - bring back winter.

About to book the tickets for Melbourne. Which I'm really looking forward to.

I think I'll upload an Mp3 shortly.

Well my Blank EP is almost recorded. All the synthesis is done, and now I'm just waiting to get into the ACAT studios to record all the guitars and vocals.
Aside from that it's too hot, and melbourne is still two weeks away.

Oh, well, I suppose that's me done, plus my place needs cleaning. And I should probably be working on the storyboard for "Photogenic".

Orgasms are funny things - sometimes they can tear you in two and sometimes you wonder why you bothered..

Well Tom's back - which I was only informed of at 9:30 last night.

So headed over to his place and people started showing up. And didn't stop. Tom, Chris, Greg, Pooch, Vicki, Stuart, Glen, Luc, Felicity... Had a bit of a talk with Vicki which was strange, because I was expecting her to consider me "wierd" and ignore me.

Headed over to PJ Oreillys, and danced until fucking three in the morning.

Saw Kim (one of Cami's college friends) at O Reillys and she was really, really friendly - until she got pissed, and then got, well, pissed.

Saw Lucy from college - ended up telling her I had had a crush on her for most of year 11 - well, she went off and made out with some guy, whatever.

Crazy, crazy night.

Then this morning I realise just how crazy my family is. I've just learnt my father has been unemployed for nearly two months, and my mother hasn't worked in almost 15 years. Godammit, somehow my parent are (almost) feeding and clothing the family on goverment family benefits. If my dad makes another comment about "abo dole bludgers" then I'm going to say something. I mean, I know the obvious retort is "yes, but YOU'RE not employed".

Yes, but I don't have a wife and eight children!

It's also pissing me off, because I really want work right now. Cami and I have both decided to wait until we get back from melbourne to look, because there would be very little use in getting anyone interested if we're about to embark on a holiday. Sometimes I think I don't apprectiate Cami enough. She really is a wonderful person, and I can think of no better person to spend the rest of my life with. God, I want to move out so badly. Well, hopefully, job willing, about 6 months.

Cami left me for Sydney - until Thursday, anyway. Plus my grandmother has just come up from melbourne. I'm not sure that's a fair trade, but anyway...

Had a very busy day doing nothing today. I was supposed to meet Briony to watch her getting her hair dreaded - all good, I get up at 7:30, we meet 8:50 - then the woman who's doing the dreads informs me that she doesn't like people watching he do hair - apparently "policy", so I head back to Cami's...

...and did nothing much?

I thought there was more to my day than that...

Well my 5-year old brother has just declared "I'd do anything for a thousand dollars! I'd kill myself for a thousand dollars!".

I think the "command and conquer" computer games may be having an adverse effect after all.

My grandmother looks slightly shocked, which isn't helped when he keeps going with "I'd kill all of [the family] for a hundred dollars!!"

Now this he's saying perfectly happily - in his mind killing people obviously is taboo enough to worth equalling his dream amount of money ($1000). It just made me think how interesting it is to think of children dealing with death, sex, and other things that *most people* haven't got there minds around fully. With my young brothers and sisters death must be an anomaly - it has been driven into them for such a long time that when people die, if they've been good they go to a heaven-like paradise. Now we're all good people (obviously) so why would we even cry at the funeral??

My mother is also very careful to shield them from "painful violence". Thus when someone dies violently and cries out, I assume in their minds it is because that is what is done, not because of the overwhelming pain or loss of dying.

Now I classify myself as agnostic - I have no fucking idea what's going on. As I can not explain this world's exsistence, nor have I ever had a personally distinct religous experience, I see now exsistence of god, or at the very least, *HE* doesn't wish me to know of his exsistence. Either way, I've had no event in my life to identify where I stand religously. Thus, by default, I've taken on a very nihlistic  view of death - when we die, we rot.

We cease to be.

Now this is not very cheery, but in the end it makes life all the more precious, and hammers home the point not to "waste" a second of life, something I'm sadly aware of still doing this. Now I'm sure all those with strong religous beliefs can patrionisingly shake their heads, in the assurance that they are determioned for a glorious afterlife, something that I'm sadly blind too.

But I would put one thing to them - make sure what you believe in, is something you *BELIEVE* in, passionalty. Don't make its something you just follow because your parents did, just bcause you were raised that way, just because you felt lonely, just because you wanted to be cool.

What sort of god is going to reward that?

now i feel cynical

...from spending two straight days on buses, going around the place getting stuff done. I've still got a lot to do before we leave on Wednesday, but hey...

...so tired....

And BTW Batgirl? I'm thinking of coming along to rovers on Tuesday, just before I head off - what thinkest you??

Well, spent most of today at Cami's place - Witm came over and spent the afternoon, which was good, because we haven't seen him in ages. Really looking forward to tomorrow night though - just Greg, Chris, Tom and me at greg's place. Just like old times.

First I've got to get my L-plate license again, tomorrow...

wish me luck

Well, here I am back from melbourne.

Pics will be posted soon.

Well I haven't updated in a while, so here goes.

I'm looking forward to Uni, partially because I'm feeling like I'm sitting around too much at the moment, and partially because I actually enjoy my course. Actually scratch that about sitting around...

I submitted my cover of Joy Division's Shadowplay to a New Order/Joy Division tribute album called Community...see how that goes.

Cami and I are also working on a cover of Decades, which when completed (which it WILL be, possibly by this weekend) be the first offical naked.pulse recording. exciting, exciting, but long overdue.

Photogenic, the short based on liverspoon's idea, is bouncing along. I have a camera script, and I've just got to seduce batgirl and madelaine to put asside a day each to film it. It's a funny film, because it requiers shooting two different segments, which can (and will) be done about three weeks apart. I'm trying to stay focused on the nearest shooting block, which is thankfully the easiest. I must go call Marc and see if he's interested in scoring it...

And as for employment, I'm going to give Coles over the road a go, because there's a 18+ vacany for late night/early morning shifts, and it'll tide me over until I get the job of my dreams. Besides, I know a couple of people who work there so it wouldn't be that bad. This year is really about trying to find an equilibrium between the different elements of my life, because it sure as hell is going to be a busy year.

I've been watching a few films lately, stuff like Land of The Dead and Apocalpse Now - films that I've been meaning to see for ever and a day, and now finally am. I'm also turning into a bit of a gamer - heard good things about Metal Gear Solid 3:SE and by golly is it good.

Will not post another freakin thing til finished play MGS....

http://www.sexytrek.com/t1/pps=typein/

WARNING: contains sex and nudity - well the page I linked to doesn't, but anyway...

spotted by dalekboy

Well I've got a job interview with Coles today - they seem pretty desperate for staff. Not exactly my dream job, but if it buys me the guitar I've been lusting over, then, hey.

That's pretty much it for me.

I haven't written in a while and not for a lack of things to say, but a lack of time.

Wednesday night - foam party at Acdemey - 5$ to get in, not bad. Should have worn a toga = free entry, free drinks, damn good deal. Crazy, crazy night. From driving around in the van at 3 in the morning, to hormones kicking in, to all sorts of wild emotions and thoughts flying around, just a lot seemed to happen in a few hours.

I'll leave the details to those who are more eloqent, but rest assured it was a big night.

Then I got three hours sleep and went off for my first day at work. Classy.

Got sat in front of Coles training videos - you have no frigging idea how terrible these videos were, gave porn as a genre a serious run for it's money in the fields of bad acting, music and direction. God, it was awful. One day I swear I'll upload some. Maybe sooner than you think.

Work at Coles is very hypnotic. Boring, repetetive work, one just blanks out and becomes a machine. It's fascinating.

So I worked yesterday. And then I worked today. I am very tired. I am going to bed.

Life just keeps getting more and more busy.

In other news Cami and I are finishing recording Decades tonight, for the New Order/Joy Division tribute album "Community".

I love music.

....the bit about being rostered on to work for 21 hours over this weekend.

Non-intoxicated partying for me this friday.

Oh well.

Will Paul survive all this work heading for him on the weekend?

Will the musical duo ever finish Decades - particularly when it's due Monday?

Will the uncensored video clip for Aguilera's Dirrty ever download?

Uni is great. I'm enjoying all my classes, mostly. We've got the head of the whole "Centre For New Media Art" tutoring for my Digital Sound class, which is interesting. Terrible wanker (who would have thought that silence and static were such valid artistic expressions?) but he knows his stuff, and he sure knows how to run supercollider - the new software we're using. God is it complex - it's basically more a programing language than a program, but the upside is that you can do ANYTHING in it, musical or otherwise.

As for Digital Video, we've now got Che who is great. That guy is pretty much what I've been looking for, somebody who can give me an honest appraisal of whether I have any talent or not, and he knows what he's talking about. Yeah, I'm really going to enjoy DV this year.

Well moving out looks like it's actually going ahead. I'm a bit scared about the whole thing to be frank, but suprisingly my parents (well, mother anyway) actually said I could move back if the whole thing falls apart. Which it's not going to. Think positive. Positive thoughts. Looks like it's only about a month or two away, which is exciting.

In other news Cami's family sucks. I have never met a group of more vile messed up people in my life. It's really funny because I've only recently noticed how HAPPY my family are. Weird religous and moral beliefs (THOU SHALL NOT WEAR CLOTHES OF ANY MIXED FIBRE, anyone?) but they're all really, really happy. There are always (cheesy as it sounds) smiles, and happiness, and laughter. Cami just seemes surrounded by family and friends who are constantly bordering on fricking suicide. Not cheery.

What else? I've got my eye on the guitar of my dreams. I've not really seriously thought about being able to afford this, but jobs are wonderful things aren't they. Shut Up, I'm enjoying started-working-recently happiness.

So here I am, back from a night at Briony's, 9 hours at work and the mastering Decades.

Suprisingly a lot to think about. I'm actually close to moving out - I still can't believe it. Everything is just moving so fast, and my parents are more relaxed about his whole thing than i am, which is freaking me out a bit.

Then there's what i actually want to do with my life. I feel like everything's moving forward and now I really have to start making choices. Am I going to get serious about music and start seriously gigging, getting this EP finished for record companies, etc. Do I have the time and effort? Am I any good in the first place? Pretty much ditto for film -

Basically my plan goes something like doing my Ep demo and a the next few short films, and seeing what *I* think of them. Let them sit for a while and then go back...

God, how much do cigaretes cost??!!?? I've never smoked, unless bumming off someone else, but CHRIST, marijuana is cheaper.

Which brings me to another point, what do I want to do with intoxicants. It's never been a problem because I only do it very occasionally and I know I'm to busy now anyway, pretty much. Suppose my general partying days are over, but then music has always been my drug. I release emotion, lose myself for hours and communicate exactly how I feel in my own time, on my own terms. I don't think i could live without it.

Fuck that sounds wanky, but i want my guitar!

For me my release has always been music

...here's myself, kabooti  and liverpsoon  enjoying the foam at Academy...

...and this is just me.

We spend about almost as much time living in dreams as we do in the outside world.

Well, I suppose we don't (I only sleep for about 7 hours a night these days) , but it seems like this mental feedback allows us to travel so far and do so much, and yet when we return we can barely remember what happened. Just that it "was cool" or "sad" and can't remember the details.

Work makes everything so hazy.

Friday, Saturday - days don't seem to matter, it's just the 9 hour shifts and the time in between.

Thank god I only work weekends,

Moving out just seems to be getting more and more complex.

Heck, I knew we'd have to apply and get shot down but NOTHING has really been set in concrete. Not what area we want to live in, not even *who's in*. 

It's ironic, moneys not the problem as is working out the fucking logiostics - something i never expected.

We all just need to sit down and talk...and argue...but mostly talk. 

So here I am, almost exactly one week since I last posted.

Then I was dead tired from work...., and now I've just worked a 9-hour shift and am in pretty much the same state of mind. I'm just amazed at how much "paul" time had vanished - I used to be able to do outragous things, like watch films, or even sleep, but now inbetween Uni and work I seem to have no time.

Plus assignments are coming up - I have to have a music video done in four weeks, a documentary in 8, learn a whole new computing language asafp, and god knows how many endless amounts of papers and essays. I really need to take at least one day off a week - at the moment Mon- Thu is Uni and Fri - Sun is work.

Oh well, I suppose I shouldn't be complaining. The money from work is good, and more than welcome. Things that have been a pipe dream for ages (black gibson guitar, ipod, etc) are actually very much a reality. And I don't seem to be struggling at Uni at all. Hell, I'm somehow finding the time to build my own snori-cam in my bedroom for the music video project.

It's also kind of scary because I'm actually starting to submit things around the place (short film to contests, music video to Rage, etc) which is a bit daunting because I'm setting myself up (thanks to basic probablility) rejection.

Oh well, learn and move on. I feeling fairly optomistic about life, just tired.

Too tired to be funny, or more likely, silly. I need a bed. Now.

Good night.

Geez, I just don't seem to have time for angst at the moment.

Well Cami went out to Huw's party tonight, without me. But that was because I was working.

Just for a change.

I'm still amazed by how many cigarettes people consume. This one guy buying *three* cartons of cigrettes. Exactly as he did last week. Now that works out to about a hundred cigs a day - I hope to god he shares them.

And Cat Food! and Dog Food! and Stuff!

....and not a single person has bought condoms yet...do I look that scary??? or are people just not having sex anymore...

Speaking of sex, I think I've found the guitar I've been looking for marked down to about half-price, but I'll have to check it out. Hopefully tomorrow I will be guitared, but we'll just have to wait see. I need to sleep. Again.

goodbye

I'm announcing a bit of a hiatus with this blog.

I simply don't have time inbetween work, uni, and the band I'm playing in at the moment.

Sorry, I'll get back later.

Ok, so now I have something to say.
 
I'm feeling really chilled out at the moment. 
Yeah, you know, everythings cool.  

Well it is actually - everything's going really well with Cami, we love each other very much, and when a man and a woman love each other very much they kill a homeless man so as to devire mutual sexual satisfaction etc etc  

I bought her some chocolates. It's so nice to be able to buy things again. Money is good - in my case it has buyed happiness...except I keep spending it. Not good if I plan to move out.  Mind you, we are trying to get a band up and running, and a band needs equipment, and equipment costs money.   Ho hum.  

Cami and I just finished a song this morning for playing live ("thorns") and it RAWKS.   Well it does, I'm not going to lie about it.  Don't have that much school to do - next few days are going to be crazy, but aside from that it's all cool. 

Works getting better - I mean it's not fun by any stretch of the imagination, but it's better than McDonalds. The promise of uni paying off in the job market is some hope at the end of the tunnel.   I want to get drunk. Is that a dangerous urge? I haven't been REALLY drunk in almost two years.   Actually maybe I don't - I feel sick just thinking about alcohol.   I'm REALLY mellow at the moment, I'm almost boring myself.  

The family seems all right at the moment (they're cool! I'm cool! You're cool! WE'RE ALL COOL!) - we've got David(next brother down)'s friend living with us which is a bit strange. I mean, he seems an alright guy from my 5 second interaction with him, and David's hardly likely to bring a psychotic rapist home to meet the family, but one day I turn up and my mom says "David's friend is staying with us". That's cool, but I never saw him - I was just wondering if he actually existed. 

The rest of the family's fine. I think my mother's finding  things a bit hard, what with a lodger and the rest.  David seems okay - I don't really know how his life is going, but that's ok I suppose.

At the moment my main problem is that I've been feeling like I've cut off my social group. I still see Briony, and I went  over to Jeremey's a few nights back, but I feel like I just  don't know that many people anymore. Have I become a hermit? I haven't really met that many people at uni...well I have  made some friends...maybe it's just that I'm busy and don't have much time to go out anymore.   I need to go out more. These holidays I am going to socialise like never before...if anyone's interested anyway.  

On the way here I saw a couple making out under a tree, with  their uni textbooks open around them. That was nice.  

I wanted to go up and hug the both of them, which probably wouldn't have been apprectiated.

I've won the "Ronin Films Prize for Film Studies" at the ANU.

Geez, now I've got to go buy a suit. 

I'm now 20.

yay.

I think I'll miss being a teenager.

Yay, audio mixer arrived today!

Now, to go and plug guitar into it!

I feel sick - Cami is sicker.

Undecided about the Dresden Dolls new album. A few tracks like "Sex Changes" and "First Orgasm" are really, really good for really different reasons. The problem is that in the end (aside from the guitar on the last track, I think?) it's an entirelly piano/drums duo. Now The White Stripes seem to be able to vary what sound they produce (ignoring Get Behind Me Satan, of course, which is full of other instrumentation) the Dolls seem to have found a particular groove that they like, and they're sticking to it. Which isn't bad, because the songs are good - it just gets slightly predictable over 13 tracks.

Will give it another listen and see.

In other news, yesterday was a terrible day.

I honestly can't be bothered going into it, but most things that could go wrong yesterday did. It sucked.

I need to go work on my essay. It's due on Wednesday and I haven't started. I'm an idiot.

I'm sick, and now I'm about to go and infect the whole southside of canberra. I asked whether they could find someone else, but apparently they can't.

Well, the money won't hurt. I'm not happy about the working 'til one, but hey... I'll live.

I'm actually feeling really alive. Cold water and electricity mingling in the veins, and all that....

YEAH

And I am one,
I'm in a race and it's killing time,
I don't need yours I'll keep it with mine,
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Coz I'm in a race and I'm doing fine,
Thank you.

Two of a kind and no one home,
I'm in a crowd and I'm still alone,
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cos one of a kind is all I own..

Finally I'm moving into the world of soundfonts. Took me long enough.

I know what i want to do with it to.

I've renounced all alcohol and drugs. I know that's a stupid blanket to make, but it doesn't get me off anymore.

I know what does.

Maybe I'm just a very sick boy, but anyway. Whatever.

I want my hair cut.

How cool is this poster??

Found it in Impact yesterday and thought, "MINE!"

* now hanging on my wall.

^ Those were the suggested tags. Where the hell they got that from is anyone's guess. Hope they're not refering to me.

Now this is not something I'd normally do, but the urge is SO DAMN GREAT.

Filling this form will enrich no-one.

1) smoked (cigs)

2) consumed alcohol

3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex

4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex

5) made out with someone of the opposite sex

6) made out with someone of the same sex

7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex

8) watched porn

9) bought porn

10) done drugs

TOTAL: 10

11) taken pain killers

12) taken someone elses prescription medicine

13) lied to your parents

14) lied to a friend

15) snuck out of the house

16) done something illegal

17) cut yourself

18) hurt someone

19) wished someone to die

20) seen someone die

TOTAL: 9

21) missed curfew

22) stayed out all night

23) eaten a carton of icecream by yourself

24) been to a therapist

25) been to rehab

26) dyed your hair

27) recieved a ticket

28) been in a wreck

29) been to a club

30) been to a bar

TOTAL: 6

31) been to a wild party

32) seen the Mardi Gras

34) had a spring break in Florida

35) sniffed anything

36) wore black nail polish

37) wore arm bands

38) wore t-shirts with band names

39) listened to rap

40) own a 50 cent cd

TOTAL: 4

41) dressed gothic

42) dressed prep

43) dressed punk

44) dressed grunge

45) stole something

46) been to drunk to remember anything

47) blacked out

48) fainted

49) had a crush on your neighbor

50) had someone sneak into your room

TOTAL: 7

51) snuck into some else's room

52) had a crush on someone of the same sex

53) been to a concert

54) dry humped someone

55) been called a slut

56) called someone a slut

57) installed speakers in your car

58) broke a mirror

59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house

60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush

TOTAL: 6

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper

62) seen an R rated movie in theaters

63) cruised the mall

64) skipped school

65) had an eating disorder

66) had an injury

67) gone to court

68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying

69) caught something on fire

70) lied about your age

TOTAL: 7

71) owned an apartment

72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend

73) cheated with someone

74) got in trouble with the police

75) talked to a stranger

76) hugged a stranger

77) kissed a stranger

78) rode in the car with a stranger

79) been sexually harrassed

80) been verbally harrassed

TOTAL: 3

81) met face to face with someone you met online

82) stayed online for 12 hours straight

83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight

84) watched tv for 12 hours straight

85) been to a fair

86) been called a bad influence

87) cursed

88) prank called someone

89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex

90) cheated on a test

TOTAL: 6

91) cheated on homework

92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex

93) been pushed into a pool

94) played pool

95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight

96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you

97) had a crush on someone younger than you

98) wear eyeliner

99) skinny dipped

100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

TOTAL: 6

OVERALL TOTAL - 90

10-20= goodie goodie

21-30= a little rebelious

31-40= getting hot baby

41-50= rebel

51-60= bad girl/boy

61-70= bitch

71-80= we cant believe u made it this far!!!!!

81-90= damn

91-100= fucking bad ass

There we go, I am now officially a BITCH. At least that's what this stupid questoniarre thinks. Why did I spend 10 precious minutes of sweet life doing it...beats me.

plus I have new photos. Actually old ones, but i could bothered uploading them now.

Good luck with your lives, all of you...

At the moment I'm pissed off because I can't blog at Uni. Firefox is down, so we use Safari, which doesn't like the meta/beta/sumthing coding that mindsay uses.

In other news, I finally understand SuperCollider. After a year and a bit of work I finally wrote my first song -

s = Server.local
(
SynthDef("marc", {|freq=70, amp=0.3|
var osc;
osc = FSinOsc.ar(freq, 0.2, amp) +
BrownNoise.ar(amp);
Out.ar(1, osc);
}).send(s);

SynthDef("ryan", {|freq=170, amp=0.1|
var osc;
osc = SinOsc.ar(freq, 2, 0.5);
Out.ar(0.2, osc);
}).send(s);
SynthDef("echo", { arg delay = 0.1, decay = 6;
var in;
in = In.ar(0,2);
ReplaceOut.ar(0, CombN.ar(in, 2.2, delay, decay, 1,
in));
}).send(s);

SynthDef("eche", { arg delay = 0.2, decay = 4;
var in;
in = In.ar(0,2);
ReplaceOut.ar(1, CombN.ar(in, 0.5, delay, decay, 1,
in));
}).send(s);

SynthDef("klank", { arg freq = 300;
var out, n;
n = 11;
out =
Klank.ar(`[Array.series(n,1),Array.geom(n,1,0.8),Array.fill(n,0.7)],
{ClipNoise.ar(0.003)}.dup, freq);
Out.ar(0, out);
}).send(s);
)
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1, "freq", 100, "amp", 0.1],s.sendBundle(2,
["/n_free", z]));
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1, "freq", 100, "amp", 0.2],s.sendBundle(10,
["/n_free", z]));
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s.sendBundle(34,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
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s.sendBundle(36,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(38, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(38,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 400],s.sendBundle(40, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(40,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 234],s.sendBundle(42, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(42,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
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1, 1, "freq", 240],s.sendBundle(38, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(38,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 260],s.sendBundle(42, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(42,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 200],s.sendBundle(46, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(46,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 220],s.sendBundle(50, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(50,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 240],s.sendBundle(54, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(54,["/s_new", "ryan", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 260],s.sendBundle(58, ["/n_free", x]));

s.sendBundle(26,["/s_new", "echo", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(42,["/s_new", "echo", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(42,["/s_new", "eche", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(46,["/s_new", "eche", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(50,["/s_new", "eche", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
s.sendBundle(54,["/s_new", "eche", x = s.nextNodeID,
1, 1, "freq", 300],s.sendBundle(70, ["/n_free", x]));
)

I'll post up an mp3 when I've worked out how to output.

Coles is going okay. I'm working a hell of a lot this weekend, which isn't to good, considering I'm trying to get this documentary finished for digital video. Speaking of Coles, I've notice another strange happening. I don't know how many times a big, butch guy has come through a checkout, and he's only got one item - tampons.

Are girls embarresed to go buy their own? Is this an obscure punishment?

It;s offical, the fact that all your friends are trying e was not your imagination!

http://the-riotact.com/?p=2413

...but I'm too tired.

Tomorrow I've got to go cut this documentary....It's actually not looking to bad, and I hope to post it online when it's done for all those of you with broadband.

Ey, that's it. I recieved the award tonight, worked last night, am tired.

Want to go to cotter with jess and cam sometime this weekend.

Photogenic needs to be made witin the the next 10 weeks. It needs to have a lot of time spent on it and be wonderful.

gar, I'll think about that tomorrow.

Oh blah.

Work was good - it's amazing the difference between working when sick and working when not. I almost had fun.

I really have a lot of assesment due - but at the moment my main concern is my short film. At the moment I'm working on a quite bizarre short enititled "Red Eye Tool" about a albino photographer trying to meet the pressures of the world. I'm actually quite proud of the script so far, particulalry because it was written in one blizzard of inspiration.

I'm really going to enjoy making this, and I believe it could do quite well on the short film festival circuit, I just have a few creative problems - mostly in the acting departments.

I need,

1> an actor who can don the contacts and bleach for the title role. Strangely enough i have the guy!

2> two girls who can pass off as models (one far more natural, the other made up to all hell) who are happy to pose, bikini clad, against nature for about half an hour.

Hmmm....why have I no friends in high places?

I stayed up way to late. Got out of work at 12.30 and then sat around and talked to a bunch of guys I work with about things.

I was only wearing a shirt, and it was really cold, so I could see my breath freeze. We talked for at least an hour, but after a while my breath wasn't visible anymore. I thought maybe it had gotten warmer, and then I realised, no, my body temperature had just dropped.

and for a short time I'm happy - a brief moment in the sea of everyday chaos

music on hiatus, essentially because all my equipment is packed away for moving - but when it comes out we know what we're doing. Cami and I are going to sit down and write and record a demo ep, hit the road and get it out, something I've wanted to do my whole (short) life.

The Downward Spiral is my favourite album ever. No album has encompassed such fury and beauty, such disregard for musical convention in favour of documenting utter despair before (arguably) redemption. 

In other news I have the complete season 5 of the Sopranos when i should be doing school work....no, to be fair I'm pretty up with finishing this term/semester....

...I know the subject of the Dresden Dolls has moved on, but I've just got hold of the first album and it's so much better than they're recently discussed second.

Tracks 4, 9 and 11 are just brilliant. I think I'll go buy it...

but first I found http://www.automaticjoy.com, who have some really nice live mp3s.

...and in other news, according to my spam "This is most modern and safe way not to cover with shame" = some herb.

I know erectile disfunction is not funny, but 

Digital Sound assignment handed in!

Now I just have an essay due in two weeks, and exam in three, and a film in five....and then it's next term...

Oh well,

For a minute there, I lost myself...

Well here I am sitting on the couch, surrounded by port swilling teenagers. Apparently this dude has port to give away. Cool.

I finished work at 1:30, and here I am.

Jesus Christ, there are still people who value my company???

Almost 350 people around the world have watched my documentary through YouTube.

Not pulling in the millions yet, but that's still pretty cool. 

Things are still really, really busy with me - hence why I haven't posted in ages. Cami and I are all moved out now, which an milestone I haven't full registered yet. Maybe it helps that life is so busy, with everything else going on I haven't had time to really get worked up about moving. We moved house - that's pretty much all. Uni goes on. Work goes on. I'm still eating the same food.

Work isn't to bad; at the moment I'm working virtually full time, which combined with Uni is fun. I'm actually now a manager: there was a big shake up with management and ownership, and half the crew packed up for Tuggernanong. So staff had to be hired and it was just easier on management to make me weekend manager. cool. There really isn't much of a change with my day to day here either, except I'm getting more shifts which is good. The hours I was working two weeks ago weren't allowing me enough money to eat and buy DVDs, and I'd hate to have to choose.

Our first bills also came in - really exciting, but they drive home the fact to me that I am really living independantly for the first time in my life. Which makes me rather proud, I don't owe anyone money at all....well, aside from Cami and she's getting it back on Wednesday.

Uni keeps ticking along, I'm having no problems keeping up with the assignments, I'm just not sure I'm handing them in of as a high a quality as I am capable. Cami should be going to Uni next year which is very exciting, but means we will really be very, very poor. Time to play more guitar, I virtually haven't touched the thing since we moved in about a month ago. Scary, I hope I can still play. Which brings me to the macbook. I desperatly need (and want) one for Uni, because all the programs I using in my degree are Mac specific. I'm also really hanging out for the portability, the ability to take it anywhere and everywhere. Suddenly I wont have to be limited to only using SuperCollider when I'm in a specific (frequently unavailable) lab room in the ANU, I can use it everywhere!! I'm really looking forward to using SuperCollider at gigs, the potential is huge, you can do ANYTHING with it, and create music that sounds like what nobody else is doing at the moment.
Cami is a bit more skeptical, but I'll show her. This is the way of the future.

Haven't been seeing anyone lately. Tom's coming over Sunday, and I should catch up with Bri, but aside from that I'm leading a bit of an isolated exsistence.

Photogenic Mark II is being made at the moment. I shot a short film, "photogenic", for my major video piece last semester, with me doing *everything*. And it looked really good and worked really well, so know I'm going back with a cast and crew to try and re-film it. It's going to be fantastic, our lead actress is incredibly friendly and talented, and I actually have the time to make something worthwhile.

So things aren't going to bad.

go to study at the AFTAS.

That would mean moving to Sydney, but that's what I want to do with my life now.

I just hope I can get in.

I love my work, I really really do - Working at Ezy Dvd is almost my dream job.

naked.pulse is finally going ahead.

If you know what I'm talking about, cool, if you don't you are AN UNMITIGATED PIECE OF SHIT WHO DESERVETH NOT TO WALK THE FACE OF THIS BEAUTIFUL EARTH.

It should be really good - i'm really excited.

~~~~

And just because I can, here's a list of the greatest 20 zombie films
of all time with suitably disgusting clips via Youtube -
http://retrocrush.com/archive2006/zombie/index.html

How many have you seen - I'm up to 12!!!

Just a post to let people know I'm now at

myspace.com/poleonline

I haven't blogged in ages - I don't know why not. I think I got out of the habit last month, when I was desperatly trying to finish my schoolwork, and just haven't got back in. I should. Early new year resolution: blog at least twice a week, even if it is a boring "how-my-day-went post". I'm really relaxed at the moment, just enjoying my time off. I'm going to be working a lot over December/January, but then most of the year my time off are spent in class. At the moment my days off are DAYS OFF.

I've been playing GTA: San Andreas a lot...well off and on. I get really into it for a week, and then I go off it a bit. It is a great game, the best I've ever played. I'm sure you all needed to know that.

The fact that various friends are going through so much reminds me of how stable my life is at the moment. It's kind of cool - I'm living with my girlfriend, in our house, going to work, doing my digital art on the side. I think I'm really happy. I know I may feel suffocated in ten years, for instance, but at the moment I'm enjoying where I'm at.

Uni finished up fairly well - two HDs (including my highest score yet), a distinction, and a credit. The credit annoyed me a bit, as I could have done better, but then again - I did write both essays the day they were due. I'm just glad the CNMA liked my major performance piece - I was really scared by the whole thing and had major food poisoniong that morning (diareha, vomiting, the whole bit) but my slightly drunk lecturer told me later that everyone was very impressed, which made all those late nights worth while. I think.

I just brought OgHr's first album, Welt, which is interesting. Some of it's really good, some if it's really not, which is a bit annoying. I want to hear Jarvis Cocker's new album, I want to so bad. This morning I actually discovered Ani Difranco's Self Evident, which is a killer song. The core of it is a long (9 minute) poem regarding the state of American politics, with a weird ambient jazz backing - fuck it has a fantastic bassline though. It's only three notes but it just works so good. Unfortunatly I don't really like her voice - no, the way she pronounces her poetry. Yet I'm slowly getting into Ani Difranco, I just find that she seems to have songs of such a range that I'm suprised anyone likes EVERYTHING  she does. I mean it's easy to like Placebo, they've been dwelling in the same genre for fifteen years, not that they do it badly; I like me Placebo, but if

you like one song you are very likely to enjoy another. I suppose I admire Ani for being able to explore so many different ares and not care what her fans make of it.

On another note (har de har har) I'm really looking forward to Big Day Out. I like Tool's new album, and from what I've heard of the Killers, Muse, and MCR, they're OK and will be worth seeing live. Mostly I just want to experience a big music festival - closest I've been to was Indyfest...which isn't very close at all. Hoping to be inspired musically as well, I normally come out from seeing live bands remembering why exactly I want to play live so badly.

And I really can't wait to buy my MacBook, essentially a Chriistmas present to myself. The audio programming language I've spent two years at uni learning is finally paying off. The potential for it's use is incredible and I can't wait to get out and use it live. I wont bother going into detail so as not to alienate, but  you can do frickin ANYTHING with this program as long as you have the concept and the time & effort to impliment it. It's particuilalry liberating becuase I've been using Fruityloops for the past few years, which is a fairly standard sequencer. Good for training and capable of fairly diverse output, but still very limiting.

I'm planning to build an algorithm which will take in live vocals, chop them up into percussion and then output them live, underneath the singer's vocals. Probably sounds needlessly confusing, and think Bjork has done something similar, but I want to give it a go. I need to learn the AudioIn & RecordBuffer functions anyway.

This MacBook will just give me such freedom - I'll be able to code, anywhere, not just at the Uni, when the labs aren't being used for classes. I'll also be able to take it gigging like Reuban (www.myspace.com/sevenen) has done has done. He seems so far ahead of the rest of us, damn him. Can you tell I'm excited?

I completed my first mashup Radiohead's Creep crossed with Eminem's Lose Yourself, and a had a lot of fun with in. Not something I think I'll persue full time, but good when you've an afternoon free.You can hear it at www.myspace.com/poleonline

I'm also waiting on my MacBook for film purposes. I've shot almost all of Photogenic, and it's just waiting to be cut and scored. The first festival deadline is the big one - Tropfest on the 11th of January. I hope I can have the film finished before the new year, but I'll have to see how I go. Forgive me if you don't see much of me between mid-december and then, I'll be furiously cutting this and working 40-50 hour weeks. But it looks good, really good. I have high hopes, and for the future.

Cheers.

...and now I'm feeling slightly bored. Working a 10 hour day IS slightly boring.

I want to go swimming on Monday.

...that not many people seem to reply to my blogs talking about the subject matter, but then again said subject matter tends to be me and what I'm doing, of which I am the most qulified to discuss. Maybe I should blog more about issues, things I feel strongly about. Hey it couldn't hurt.

So to get the ball rolling...

statement: gay people are bad in bed.

discuss.

Rule 1. You can only say Yes or No!

Rule 2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!

Have you:
Kissed someone on your top 8/16/24?
no

Danced in front of your mirror naked? 
no

Ever told a lie? 
 yes 

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? 
yes

Kissed someone of the same sex? 
yes

Drawn a picture? 
yes

Slept in until 5 PM? 
yes

Been fired from a job? 
yes

Sang karaoke? 
yes

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? 
yes

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? 
yes

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? 
yes

Kissed in the rain? 
yes

Sang in the shower? 
yes

Gave your private parts nicknames? 
yes

Sat on a roof top? 

Broken a bone? 
no

I thought I'd run a link to Henry Rollins "Liar".

I love this song, and the video is pretty damn good too.

You may like it, you may not - screw you, I love it.

I hate christmas in retail. Everyone gets cranky and pissed off that their precious dvds haven't arrived just yet, even though we told them the odds and in the end, it isn't our fault if the distributors are too lazy to send things out on time. Where's the christmas spirit people??

I'm also working more now then I ever have in my life before.

That's right I worked Thursday, Friday, and today, and then I've got Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Gah.

At least I'm getting my beloved macbook on wedensday. That will make me happy, and means I can finally finish cutting my film - deadline is Jan 11th, so inbetween that and work I will have NO time to myself.

Cool.

Apparently I'm Cephalophobic.

This is a shameless plug for Cunningham, without a doubt the best video artist I've come across.

I intially came across his work as directing music videos for Aphex Twin songs: 

Come To Daddy

Windowlicker

But yesterday I started watching some of his instillation work, and my god it is brilliant. Led me to decide I want to work with some bands next year and make some music videos. All those cool ideas that are just that - "cool ideas" that don't really have a place within a narrative film.

Anyway here is Flex, which just blew me away.

As for me, New Years Eve was a bit nothing. I stayed at home and watched Bring It On with my girl. And I played guitar.

Now I'm just waiting on this MacBook. I need it by Friday, and then I'm just going to spend a week editing and get it posted off to Tropfest. I haven't even thought about what might become (or not) of it. I just want to get it finished. Get it into competition.

...at the moment I've fallen in love with Radiohead's Hail To The Theif, without a doubt my favourite of their albums. A melding of their electronic experimentation from Kid A/Amnesiac and the more traditional guitar/bass/drums (piano for ballad) work of earlier albums, this is simply my favourite album at the moment - and I get to play it at work!!!

In other news my Killing Joke Tshirt arrived from eBay!! I'm gonna wear it to Big Day Out!!!

wow - the last few days I've come across some very cool stuff. Now I need this Mac by Friday, so I'm praying...

My MacBook arrived in the store today!!!

I'm going to go pick it up tomorrow!!!

Wow!! I'm so excited!!!

stolen from Witm:

Movies watched....

(X) Rocky Horror Picture Show
() Grease
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
() Boondock Saints
(X) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(X) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
Total: 4

(X) The Princess Bride
(X) AnchorMan
(X) Napoleon Dynamite
(X) Labyrinth
(X) Saw
() Saw II
() White Noise
() White Oleander
() Anger Management
() 50 First Dates
(X) The Princess Diaries
() The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 10

(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(X) Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 19

(X) Harry Potter 1
(X) Harry Potter 2
() Harry Potter 3
() Harry Potter 4
(X) Resident Evil 1
() Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
(X) The Village
() Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 24

(X) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland
(X) Signs
() The Grinch
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beggining
() White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
() 13 Going on 30
(X) I, Robot
() Robots
Total so far: 29

() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
() Lemony Snickt: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(X) Deep Impact
() KingPin
() Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
() Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() Joe Dirt
(X) KING KONG
Total so far: 32

() A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
()Dumber & Dumberer
() Final Destination
(X) Final Destination 2
() Final Destination 3
(X) Halloween
(X) The Ring
(X) The Ring 2
() Surviving X-MAS
() Flubber
Total so far:37

() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
() Practical Magic
(X) Chicago
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
(X) Hellboy
() Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(X) The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 40

() The Day After Tomorrow
(X) Child's Play
() Seed of Chucky
() Bride of Chucky
() Ten Things I Hate About You
(X) Just Married
() Gothika
(X) Nightmare on Elm Street
(X) Sixteen Candles
() Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(X) The Grudge
() The Grudge 2
(X) The Mask
() Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 46

() Bad Boys
(X) Bad Boys 2
(X) Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Slevin
(X) Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(X) Predator I
() Predator II
() The Fog
(X) Ice Age
(X) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Curious George
Total so far: 52

(X) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(X) ET
() Children of the Corn
() My Boss's Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
(X) War of the Worlds
(X) Rush Hour
(X) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 57

() Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
() She's All That
() Calendar Girls
(X) Sideways
(X) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(X) Ever After
(X) Wizard of Oz
() Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
(X) The Terminator
(X) The Terminator 2
(X) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 64

(X) X-Men
(X) X2
(X) X-3
(X) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
() Sky High
(X) Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(X) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Little Mermaid
() Freaky Friday
(X) Reign of Fire
() The Skulls
(X) Cruel Intentions
(X) Cruel Intentions 2
(X) The Hot Chick
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
Total so far: 78

(X) Swimfan
(X) Miracle on 34th street
() Old School
() The Notebook
(X) K-Pax
() Krippendorf's Tribe
(X) A Walk to Remember
() Ice Castles
() Boogeyman
() The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 82

(X)Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(X) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
() Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
() Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 86

(X) Baseketball
(X) Hostel
() Waiting for Guffman
() House of 1000 Corpses
() Devils Rejects
() Elf
() Highlander
(X) Mothman Prophecies
(X) American History X
() Three
Total so Far: 90

() The Jacket
() Kung Fu Hustle
(X) Shaolin Soccer
(X) Night Watch
(X) Monsters inc.
(X)Titanic
(X)Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(X) Shaun Of the Dead
() Willard
Total so far: 96

() High Tension
() Club Dread
(X) Hulk
(X) Dawn Of the Dead
(X) Hook
(X) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(X) 28 days later
(X) Orgazmo
() Phantasm
(X) Waterworld
Total so far: 103

(X) Kill Bill vol 1
(X) Kill Bill vol 2
() Mortal Kombat
(X) Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
() the Hills Have Eyes
(X) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
() The Last House on the Left
(X) Re-Animator
(X) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 109

(X) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(X) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(X) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(X) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(X) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(X) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(X) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
() Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 116

(X) The Matrix
(X) The Matrix Reloaded
(X) The Matrix Revolutions
(X) Animatrix
(X) Evil Dead
(X) Evil Dead 2
(X) team america world police
() Red Dragon
() Silence of the Lambs
(X) Hannibal
Total so far:  124

Thought I'd share this with you all.

made it last week -

a short animation: